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Antya 19-1975: The Inconceivable Behavior of Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu

Chapter 19

The Inconceivable Behavior of Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu

The following summary of Chapter Nineteen is given by Srila Bhaktivinoda

Thakura in his Amrta-pravaha-bhasya.

Every year, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu

asked Jagadananda Pandita to visit His mother in Navadvipa with gifts of

cloth and prasada. After one such visit, Jagadananda Pandita returned

to Puri with a sonnet that Advaita Acarya had written. When Sri Caitanya

Mahaprabhu read it, His ecstasy was so great that all the devotees

feared that the Lord would very soon pass away. The Lord's condition was

so serious that at night He would bruise and bloody His face by rubbing

it against the walls. To stop this, Svarupa Damodara asked Sankara

Pandita to stay at night in the same room with the Lord.

This chapter further describes how Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu entered

the Jagannatha-vallabha garden during the full-moon night of Vaisakha (

April-May) and experienced various transcendental ecstasies. Overwhelmed

with ecstatic love at suddenly seeing Lord Sri Krsna beneath an asoka

tree, He exhibited various symptoms of spiritual madness.

Antya 19.1

TEXT 1

TEXT

vande tam krsna-caitanyam

matr-bhakta-siromanim

pralapya mukha-sangharsi

madhudyane lalasa yah

SYNONYMS

vande -- I offer my respectful obeisances; tam -- unto Him; krsna-

caitanyam -- Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; matr-bhakta -- of great

devotees of mothers; siromanim -- the crown jewel; pralapya --

talking like a madman; mukha-sangharsi -- who used to rub His face;

madhu-udyane -- in the garden known as Jagannatha-vallabha; lalasa --

enjoyed; yah -- who.

TRANSLATION

Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, the most exalted of all devotees of

mothers, spoke like a madman and rubbed His face against the walls.

Overwhelmed by emotions of ecstatic love, He would sometimes enter the

Jagannatha-vallabha garden to perform His pastimes. I offer my

respectful obeisances unto Him.

Antya 19.2

TEXT 2

TEXT

jaya jaya sri-caitanya jaya nityananda

jayadvaita-candra jaya gaura-bhakta-vrnda

SYNONYMS

jaya jaya -- all glories; sri-caitanya -- to Lord Sri Caitanya

Mahaprabhu; jaya -- all glories; nityananda -- to Nityananda Prabhu;

jaya -- all glories; advaita-candra -- to Advaita Acarya; jaya -- all

glories; gaura-bhakta-vrnda -- to the devotees of Lord Gauranga.

TRANSLATION

All glories to Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu! All glories to Lord Nityananda!

All glories to Advaita Acarya! And all glories to all the devotees of

Lord Caitanya Mahaprabhu!

Antya 19.3

TEXT 3

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ei-mate mahaprabhu krsna-premavese

unmada-pralapa kare ratri-divase

SYNONYMS

ei-mate -- in this way; mahaprabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; krsna-

prema-avese -- in ecstatic emotional love of Krsna; unmada -- madness;

pralapa -- and crazy talk; kare -- performs; ratri-divase -- throughout

the entire day and night.

TRANSLATION

In the ecstasy of love of Krsna, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu thus behaved

like a madman, talking insanely all day and night.

Antya 19.4

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prabhura atyanta priya pandita-jagadananda

yahara caritre prabhu payena ananda

SYNONYMS

prabhura -- of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; atyanta -- very; priya --

affectionate; pandita-jagadananda -- Jagadananda Pandita; yahara caritre

-- in whose activities; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; payena --

gets; ananda -- great pleasure.

TRANSLATION

Jagadananda Pandita was a very dear devotee of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu.

The Lord derived great pleasure from his activities.

Antya 19.5

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prati-vatsara prabhu tanre pathana nadiyate

viccheda-duhkhita jani' janani asvasite

SYNONYMS

prati-vatsara -- every year; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; tanre --

him; pathana -- sends; nadiyate -- to Navadvipa; viccheda-duhkhita jani'

-- knowing her affliction due to separation; janani -- His mother;

asvasite -- to console.

TRANSLATION

Knowing His mother to be greatly afflicted by separation, the

Lord would send Jagadananda Pandita to Navadvipa every year to console

her.

Antya 19.6

TEXT 6

TEXT

"nadiya calaha, matare kahiha namaskara

amara name pada-padma dhariha tanhara

SYNONYMS

nadiya calaha -- start for Nadia; matare -- unto My mother; kahiha --

tell; namaskara -- My obeisances; amara name -- in My name; pada-padma --

the lotus feet; dhariha -- catch; tanhara -- her.

TRANSLATION

Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu told Jagadananda Pandita, "Go to Nadia and offer

My obeisances to My mother. Touch her lotus feet in My name.

Antya 19.7

TEXT 7

TEXT

kahiha tanhare -- 'tumi karaha smarana

nitya asi' ami tomara vandiye carana

SYNONYMS

kahiha tanhare -- inform her; tumi karaha smarana -- please remember;

nitya asi' -- coming daily; ami -- I; tomara -- your; vandiye carana --

offer respect to the lotus feet.

TRANSLATION

"Tell her for Me, 'Please remember that I come here every day and offer

My respects to your lotus feet.

Antya 19.8

TEXT 8

TEXT

ye-dine tomara iccha karaite bhojana

se-dine asi' avasya kariye bhaksana

SYNONYMS

ye-dine -- any day; tomara -- your; iccha -- desire; karaite bhojana --

to feed Me; se-dine -- on that day; asi' -- coming; avasya -- certainly;

kariye bhaksana -- I eat.

TRANSLATION

" 'Any day you desire to feed Me, I certainly come and accept what you

offer.

Antya 19.9

TEXT 9

TEXT

tomara seva chadi' ami karilun sannyasa

'baula' hana ami kailun dharma-nasa

SYNONYMS

tomara seva chadi' -- giving up your service; ami -- I; karilun --

accepted; sannyasa -- the renounced order of life; baula hana --

becoming mad; ami -- I; kailun -- did; dharma-nasa -- destruction of

religion.

TRANSLATION

" 'I have given up service to you and have accepted the vow of sannyasa.

I have thus become mad and have destroyed the principles of religion.

Antya 19.10

TEXT 10

TEXT

ei aparadha tumi na la-iha amara

tomara adhina ami -- putra se tomara

SYNONYMS

ei aparadha -- this offense; tumi -- you; na -- do not; la-iha -- take;

amara -- of Me; tomara -- your; adhina -- dependent; ami -- I; putra --

son; se -- that; tomara -- of you.

TRANSLATION

" 'Mother, please do not take this as an offense, for I, your son, am

completely dependent upon you.

Antya 19.11

TEXT 11

TEXT

nilacale achi ami tomara ajnate

yavat jiba, tavat ami nariba chadite'

SYNONYMS

nilacale -- Jagannatha Puri, Nilacala; achi ami -- I am; tomara ajnate --

on the basis of your order; yavat jiba -- as long as I live; tavat --

so long; ami -- I; nariba -- shall not be able; chadite -- to leave.

TRANSLATION

" 'I am staying here at Nilacala, Jagannatha Puri, according to your

order. As long as I live, I shall not leave this place.' "

Antya 19.12

TEXT 12

TEXT

gopa-lilaya paila yei prasada-vasane

matare pathana taha purira vacane

SYNONYMS

gopa-lilaya -- in His pastimes as a cowherd boy; paila -- got; yei --

whatever; prasada -- remnant; vasane -- clothing; matare -- unto His

mother; pathana -- sent; taha -- that; purira vacane -- on the order of

Paramananda Puri.

TRANSLATION

Following the order of Paramananda Puri, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu sent

His mother the prasada clothing left by Lord Jagannatha after His

pastimes as a cowherd boy.

Antya 19.13

TEXT 13

TEXT

jagannathera uttama prasada aniya yatane

matare prthak pathana, ara bhakta-gane

SYNONYMS

jagannathera -- of Lord Jagannatha; uttama -- first class; prasada --

remnants of food; aniya yatane -- bringing very carefully; matare --

unto His mother; prthak -- separately; pathana -- sends; ara bhakta-gane

-- and to the other devotees.

TRANSLATION

Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu very carefully brought first-class prasada from

Lord Jagannatha and sent it in separate packages to His mother and the

devotees at Nadia.

Antya 19.14

TEXT 14

TEXT

matr-bhakta-ganera prabhu hana siromani

sannyasa kariya sada sevena janani

SYNONYMS

matr-bhakta-ganera -- of the devotees of mothers; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya

Mahaprabhu; hana -- is; siromani -- the topmost jewel; sannyasa kariya --

even after taking the sannyasa order; sada -- always; sevena -- renders

service; janani -- to His mother.

TRANSLATION

Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu is the topmost gem of all devotees of mothers.

He rendered service to His mother even after He had accepted the vow of

sannyasa.

Antya 19.15

TEXT 15

TEXT

jagadananda nadiya giya matare milila

prabhura yata nivedana, sakala kahila

SYNONYMS

jagadananda -- Jagadananda; nadiya -- to Navadvipa; giya -- going;

matare -- mother Saci; milila -- met; prabhura -- of Sri Caitanya

Mahaprabhu; yata nivedana -- all kinds of salutations; sakala --

everything; kahila -- he told.

TRANSLATION

Jagadananda Pandita thus returned to Nadia, and when he met Sacimata, he

conveyed to her all the Lord's salutations.

Antya 19.16

TEXT 16

TEXT

acaryadi bhakta-gane milila prasada diya

mata-thani ajna la-ila maseka rahiya

SYNONYMS

acarya-adi -- beginning with Advaita Acarya; bhakta-gane -- all the

devotees; milila -- he met; prasada diya -- delivering the prasada of

Lord Jagannatha; mata-thani -- from mother Saci; ajna la-ila -- took

permission to leave; maseka rahiya -- remaining for one month.

TRANSLATION

He then met all the other devotees, headed by Advaita Acarya, and gave

them the prasada of Jagannatha. After staying for one month, he took

permission from mother Saci to leave.

Antya 19.17

TEXT 17

TEXT

acaryera thani giya ajna magila

acarya-gosani prabhure sandesa kahila

SYNONYMS

acaryera thani -- to Advaita Acarya; giya -- going; ajna magila --

begged for permission to leave; acarya-gosani -- Advaita Acarya;

prabhure -- unto Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; sandesa kahila -- sent a

message.

TRANSLATION

When he went to Advaita Acarya and also asked His permission to return,

Advaita Prabhu gave him a message to deliver to Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu.

Antya 19.18

TEXT 18

TEXT

taraja-praheli acarya kahena thare-thore

prabhu matra bujhena, keha bujhite na pare

SYNONYMS

taraja-praheli -- a sonnet in equivocal language; acarya -- Advaita

Acarya; kahena -- spoke; thare-thore -- making some indications; prabhu -

- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; matra -- only; bujhena -- could understand;

keha bujhite na pare -- others could not understand.

TRANSLATION

Advaita Acarya had written a sonnet in equivocal language with an import

that Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu could understand but others could not.

Antya 19.19

TEXT 19

TEXT

"prabhure kahiha amara koti namaskara

ei nivedana tanra carane amara

SYNONYMS

prabhure kahiha -- just inform Lord Caitanya; amara -- My; koti

namaskara -- hundreds and thousands of obeisances; ei nivedana -- this

is the submission; tanra -- His; carane -- unto the lotus feet; amara --

My.

TRANSLATION

In His sonnet, Advaita Prabhu first offered His obeisances hundreds and

thousands of times unto the lotus feet of Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu.

He then submitted the following statement at His lotus feet.

Antya 19.20

TEXT 20

TEXT

baulake kahiha, -- loka ha-ila baula

baulake kahiha, -- hate na vikaya caula

SYNONYMS

baulake kahiha -- please inform Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, who is playing

the part of a madman in ecstatic love; loka -- the people in general; ha-

ila -- have become; baula -- also mad in ecstatic love; baulake kahiha --

again inform Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, the baula; hate -- in the

market; na -- not; vikaya -- sells; caula -- rice.

TRANSLATION

"Please inform Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, who is acting like a madman,

that everyone here has become mad like Him. Inform Him also that in the

marketplace, rice is no longer in demand.

Antya 19.21

TEXT 21

TEXT

baulake kahiha, -- kaye nahika aula

baulake kahiha, -- iha kahiyache baula"

SYNONYMS

baulake kahiha -- again inform the baula, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; kaye -

- in business; nahika -- there is not; aula -- persons who have become

mad in ecstatic love; baulake kahiha -- again inform the baula, Sri

Caitanya Mahaprabhu; iha -- this; kahiyache -- has spoken; baula --

another madman, Sri Advaita Prabhu Himself.

TRANSLATION

"Those now mad in ecstatic love are no longer

interested in the material world. Tell Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu that

Advaita Prabhu, who has also become a madman in ecstatic love,

has spoken these words."

Antya 19.22

TEXT 22

TEXT

eta suni' jagadananda hasite lagila

nilacale asi' tabe prabhure kahila

SYNONYMS

eta suni' -- hearing this; jagadananda -- Jagadananda Pandita; hasite

lagila -- began to laugh; nilacale -- to Jagannatha Puri; asi' --

returning; tabe -- then; prabhure kahila -- he told all this to Sri

Caitanya Mahaprabhu.

TRANSLATION

When he heard Advaita Acarya's statement, Jagadananda Pandita began to

laugh, and when he returned to Jagannatha Puri, Nilacala, he informed

Caitanya Mahaprabhu of everything.

Antya 19.23

TEXT 23

TEXT

taraja suni' mahaprabhu isat hasila

'tanra yei ajna' -- bali' mauna dharila

SYNONYMS

taraja suni' -- hearing the sonnet; mahaprabhu -- Sri Caitanya

Mahaprabhu; isat hasila -- quietly smiled; tanra yei ajna -- that is His

order; bali' -- saying; mauna dharila -- became silent.

TRANSLATION

After hearing the equivocal sonnet by Advaita Acarya, Sri Caitanya

Mahaprabhu quietly smiled. "That is His order," He said. Then He fell

silent.

Antya 19.24

TEXT 24

TEXT

janiyao svarupa gosani prabhure puchila

'ei tarajara artha bujhite narila'

SYNONYMS

janiyao -- although knowing; svarupa gosani -- Svarupa Damodara Gosvami;

prabhure puchila -- inquired from Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; ei tarajara

artha -- the meaning of this sonnet; bujhite -- to understand; narila --

I was not able.

TRANSLATION

Although he knew the secret, Svarupa Damodara Gosvami inquired from the

Lord, "What is the meaning of this sonnet? I could not understand it."

Antya 19.25

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TEXT

prabhu kahena, -- 'acarya haya pujaka prabala

agama-sastrera vidhi-vidhane kusala

SYNONYMS

prabhu kahena -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu said; acarya haya pujaka

prabala -- Advaita Acarya is a great worshiper; agama-sastrera -- of the

Vedic literature; vidhi-vidhane kusala -- very expert in the regulative

principles.

TRANSLATION

Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu replied, "Advaita Acarya is a great worshiper of

the Lord and is very expert in the regulative principles enjoined in the

Vedic literatures.

Antya 19.26

TEXT 26

TEXT

upasana lagi' devera karena avahana

puja lagi' kata kala karena nirodhana

SYNONYMS

upasana lagi' -- for worshiping the Deity; devera -- of the Lord; karena

avahana -- invites to come; puja lagi' -- to perform the worship; kata

kala -- for some time; karena nirodhana -- He keeps the Deity.

TRANSLATION

"Advaita Acarya invites the Lord to come and be worshiped, and to

perform the worship He keeps the Deity for some time.

Antya 19.27

TEXT 27

TEXT

puja-nirvahana haile pache karena visarjana

tarajara na jani artha, kiba tanra mana

SYNONYMS

puja-nirvahana -- finishing of the worship; haile -- when there is;

pache -- at last; karena visarjana -- sends back the Deity; tarajara --

of the sonnet; na jani -- I do not know; artha -- the meaning; kiba

tanra mana -- what is in His mind.

TRANSLATION

"After the worship is completed, He sends the Deity somewhere else. I do

not know the meaning of this sonnet, nor do I know what is in Advaita

Prabhu's mind.

Antya 19.28

TEXT 28

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maha-yogesvara acarya -- tarajate samartha

amiha bujhite nari tarajara artha'

SYNONYMS

maha-yogesvara -- the greatest mystic; acarya -- Advaita Acarya;

tarajate samartha -- very expert in writing sonnets; amiha -- and yet I;

bujhite -- to understand; nari -- am not able; tarajara -- of the sonnet;

artha -- the meaning.

TRANSLATION

"Advaita Acarya is a great mystic. No one can understand Him. He is

expert in writing sonnets that even I Myself cannot understand."

Antya 19.29

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suniya vismita ha-ila saba bhakta-gana

svarupa-gosani kichu ha-ila vimana

SYNONYMS

suniya -- hearing; vismita -- astonished; ha-ila -- became; saba -- all;

bhakta-gana -- the devotees; svarupa-gosani -- Svarupa Damodara Gosvami;

kichu -- somewhat; ha-ila -- became; vimana -- morose.

TRANSLATION

Hearing this, all the devotees were astonished, especially Svarupa

Damodara, who became somewhat morose.

Antya 19.30

TEXT 30

TEXT

sei dina haite prabhura ara dasa ha-ila

krsnera viccheda-dasa dviguna badila

SYNONYMS

sei dine haite -- from that day on; prabhura -- of Sri Caitanya

Mahaprabhu; ara -- another; dasa -- condition; ha-ila -- there was;

krsnera -- from Lord Krsna; viccheda-dasa -- the condition of separation;

dvi-guna -- twice; badila -- increased.

TRANSLATION

From that day on, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu's emotional state changed

markedly; His feelings of separation from Krsna doubled in intensity.

Antya 19.31

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TEXT

unmada-pralapa-cesta kare ratri-dine

radha-bhavavese viraha bade anuksane

SYNONYMS

unmada -- madness; pralapa -- craziness; cesta -- activities; kare ratri-

dine -- He performed day and night; radha-bhava-avese -- in the ecstatic

emotion of Srimati Radharani; viraha -- separation; bade -- increases;

anuksane -- every moment.

TRANSLATION

As His feelings of separation in the ecstasy of Srimati Radharani

increased at every moment, the Lord's activities, both day and night,

were now wild, insane performances.

Antya 19.32

TEXT 32

TEXT

acambite sphure krsnera mathura-gamana

udghurna-dasa haila unmada-laksana

SYNONYMS

acambite -- suddenly; sphure -- there awoke; krsnera -- of Lord Krsna;

mathura-gamana -- the departure for Mathura; udghurna-dasa -- the

ecstatic condition known as udghurna; haila -- there was; unmada-laksana

-- the symptom of madness.

TRANSLATION

Suddenly there awoke within Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu the scene of Lord

Krsna's departure to Mathura, and He began exhibiting the symptom of

ecstatic madness known as udghurna.

Antya 19.33

TEXT 33

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ramanandera gala dhari' karena pralapana

svarupe puchena mani' nija-sakhi-gana

SYNONYMS

ramanandera -- of Ramananda Raya; gala dhari' -- holding the neck;

karena pralapana -- begins talking like a crazy man; svarupe puchena --

inquired from Svarupa Damodara; mani' -- accepting; nija-sakhi-gana --

as a gopi friend.

TRANSLATION

Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu spoke like a madman, holding Ramananda Raya by

the neck, and He questioned Svarupa Damodara, thinking him to be His

gopi friend.

Antya 19.34

TEXT 34

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purve yena visakhare radhika puchila

sei sloka padi' pralapa karite lagila

SYNONYMS

purve -- formerly; yena -- as; visakhare -- unto Visakha; radhika --

Srimati Radharani; puchila -- inquired; sei sloka -- that verse; padi' --

reading; pralapa -- talking like a crazy man; karite lagila -- began

to do.

TRANSLATION

Just as Srimati Radharani inquired from Her personal friend Visakha, Sri

Caitanya Mahaprabhu, reading that very verse, began speaking like a

madman.

Antya 19.35

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kva nanda-kula-candramah kva sikhi-candrakalankrtih

kva mandra-murali-ravah kva nu surendra-nila-dyutih

kva rasa-rasa-tandavi kva sakhi jiva-raksausadhir

nidhir mama suhrttamah kva bata hanta ha dhig-vidhim

SYNONYMS

kva -- where; nanda-kula-candramah -- Krsna, who has arisen like the

moon in the ocean of the dynasty of Nanda Maharaja; kva -- where; sikhi-

candraka-alankrtih -- Krsna, whose head is decorated with a peacock

feather; kva -- where; mandra-murali-ravah -- Krsna, whose flute

produces a deep sound; kva -- where; nu -- certainly; surendra-nila-

dyutih -- Krsna, whose bodily luster is like the jewel called indranila;

kva -- where; rasa-rasa-tandavi -- Krsna, who is expert in dancing in

the rasa dance; kva -- where; sakhi -- O My dear friend; jiva-raksa-

ausadhih -- Krsna, who is the medicine that can save one's life; nidhih -

- treasure; mama -- My; suhrt-tamah -- best of friends; kva -- where;

bata -- I am so sorry; hanta -- alas; ha -- oh; dhik-vidhim --

condemnation to Vidhi, the maker of my destiny.

TRANSLATION

" 'My dear friend, where is Krsna, who is like the moon rising from the

ocean of Maharaja Nanda's dynasty? Where is Krsna, His head decorated

with a peacock feather? Where is He? Where is Krsna, whose flute

produces such a deep sound? Oh, where is Krsna, whose bodily luster is

like the luster of the blue indranila jewel? Where is Krsna, who is so

expert in rasa dancing? Oh, where is He who can save My life? Kindly

tell Me where to find Krsna, the treasure of My life and best of My

friends. Feeling separation from Him, I hereby condemn Providence, the

shaper of My destiny.'

PURPORT

This verse is found in the Lalita-madhava (3.25) of Srila Rupa Gosvami.

Antya 19.36

TEXT 36

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"vrajendra-kula -- dugdha-sindhu, krsna tahe purna indu,

janmi' kaila jagat ujora

kanty-amrta yeba piye, nirantara piya jiye,

vraja-janera nayana-cakora

SYNONYMS

vrajendra-kula -- the dynasty of Maharaja Nanda in Vrajabhumi; dugdha-

sindhu -- like the ocean of milk; krsna -- Lord Krsna; tahe -- in that;

purna -- full; indu -- moon; janmi' -- arising; kaila -- has made; jagat

-- the whole world; ujora -- illuminated; kanti-amrta -- the nectar of

His bodily luster; yeba piye -- anyone who drinks; nirantara -- always;

piya -- drinking; jiye -- sustains life; vraja-janera -- of the

inhabitants of Vrndavana; nayana-cakora -- eyes that are like cakora

birds.

TRANSLATION

"The family of Maharaja Nanda is just like an ocean of milk, wherein

Lord Krsna has arisen like the full moon to illuminate the entire

universe. The eyes of the residents of Vraja are like cakora birds that

continuously drink the nectar of His bodily luster and thus live

peacefully.

Antya 19.37

TEXT 37

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sakhi he, kotha krsna, karaha darasana

ksaneke yahara mukha, na dekhile phate buka,

sighra dekhaha, na rahe jivana

SYNONYMS

sakhi he -- O My dear friend; kotha krsna -- where is Lord Krsna; karaha

darasana -- please let Me see Him; ksaneke -- within a moment; yahara --

whose; mukha -- face; na dekhile -- if not seeing; phate buka -- My

heart is breaking; sighra -- quickly; dekhaha -- show; na rahe jivana --

My life is expiring.

TRANSLATION

"My dear friend, where is Krsna? Kindly let Me see Him. My heart breaks

at not seeing His face even for a moment. Kindly show Him to Me

immediately; otherwise I cannot live.

Antya 19.38

TEXT 38

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ei vrajera ramani, kamarka-tapta-kumudini,

nija-karamrta diya dana

praphullita kare yei, kahan mora candra sei,

dekhaha, sakhi, rakha mora prana

SYNONYMS

ei -- these; vrajera ramani -- women of Vrndavana; kama-arka-tapta-

kumudini -- exactly like lilies becoming very hot in the sun of lusty

desire; nija -- own; kara-amrta -- nectar of hands; diya -- giving;

dana -- charity; praphullita -- jubilant; kare -- makes; yei -- one who;

kahan -- where; mora -- My; candra -- moon; sei -- that; dekhaha --

please show; sakhi -- O My dear friend; rakha -- please save; mora prana

-- My life.

TRANSLATION

"The women of Vrndavana are just like lilies growing hot in the sun of

lusty desires. But moonlike Krsna makes them all jubilant by bestowing

upon them the nectar of His hands. O My dear friend, where is My moon

now? Save My life by showing Him to Me!

Antya 19.39

TEXT 39

TEXT

kahan se cudara thama, sikhi-pinchera udana,

nava-meghe yena indra-dhanu

pitambara -- tadid-dyuti, mukta-mala -- baka-panti,

navambuda jini' syama-tanu

SYNONYMS

kahan -- where; se -- that; cudara thama -- beauty of the helmet; sikhi-

pinchera udana -- upon which there is a peacock feather; nava-meghe --

in a new cloud; yena -- just like; indra-dhanu -- the rainbow; pita-

ambara -- yellow garments; tadit-dyuti -- like the illumination of

lightning; mukta-mala -- pearl necklace; baka-panti -- like rows of

ducks; nava-ambuda -- a new rain cloud; jini' -- conquering; syama-tanu -

- the blackish body.

TRANSLATION

"My dear friend, where is that beautiful helmet with a peacock feather

upon it like a rainbow upon a new cloud? Where are those yellow garments,

shining like lightning? And where is that necklace of pearls that

resemble flocks of ducks flying in the sky? The blackish body of Krsna

triumphs over the new blackish rain cloud.

Antya 19.40

TEXT 40

TEXT

eka-bara yara nayane lage, sada tara hrdaye jage,

krsna-tanu -- yena amra-atha

nari-mane paise haya, yatne nahi bahiraya,

tanu nahe, -- seya-kulera kanta

SYNONYMS

eka-bara -- once; yara -- whose; nayane -- eyes; lage -- capture; sada --

always; tara -- his; hrdaye -- in the heart; jage -- remains prominent;

krsna-tanu -- the body of Krsna; yena -- like; amra-atha -- the sap of

the mango tree; nari-mane -- in the minds of women; paise -- enters;

haya -- alas; yatne -- even with great endeavor; nahi -- does not;

bahiraya -- come out; tanu nahe -- is not an ordinary body; seya-kulera

kanta -- it is like the thorn of the seya berry tree.

TRANSLATION

"If a person's eyes even once capture that beautiful body of Krsna's, it

remains always prominent within his heart. Krsna's body resembles the

sap of the mango tree, for when it enters the minds of women, it will

not come out, despite great endeavor. Thus Krsna's extraordinary body is

like a thorn of the seya berry tree.

Antya 19.41

TEXT 41

TEXT

jiniya tamala-dyuti, indranila-sama kanti,

se kantite jagat mataya

srngara-rasa-sara chani', tate candra-jyotsna sani',

jani vidhi niramila taya

SYNONYMS

jiniya -- being victorious over; tamala-dyuti -- the luster of the

tamala tree; indra-nila -- the gem known as indranila; sama kanti -- the

luster like; se kantite -- by that luster; jagat mataya -- the whole

world becomes maddened; srngara-rasa -- of the mellow of conjugal love;

sara -- essence; chani' -- filtering; tate -- in that; candra-jyotsna --

the illumination of the full moon; sani' -- mixing; jani -- I know;

vidhi -- Providence; niramila -- made very clear; taya -- that.

TRANSLATION

"Krsna's bodily luster shines like the indranila gem and surpasses the

luster of the tamala tree. The luster of His body drives the entire

world mad because Providence has made it transparent by refining the

essence of the mellow of conjugal love and mixing it with moonshine.

Antya 19.42

TEXT 42

TEXT

kahan se murali-dhvani, navabhra-garjita jini',

jagat akarse sravane yahara

uthi' dhaya vraja-jana, trsita cataka-gana,

asi' piye kanty-amrta-dhara

SYNONYMS

kahan -- where; se -- that; murali-dhvani -- the vibration of the flute;

nava-abhra-garjita jini' -- conquering the vibrations of new clouds;

jagat -- the whole world; akarse -- attracts; sravane -- the hearing;

yahara -- whose; uthi' -- standing up; dhaya -- run; vraja-jana -- the

inhabitants of Vrajabhumi; trsita cataka-gana -- like lusty cataka birds;

asi' -- coming; piye -- drink; kanti-amrta-dhara -- the showers of the

nectar of Krsna's bodily luster.

TRANSLATION

"The deep vibration of Krsna's flute surpasses the thundering of new

clouds and attracts the aural reception of the entire world. Thus the

inhabitants of Vrndavana rise and pursue that sound, drinking the

showering nectar of Krsna's bodily luster like thirsty cataka birds.

Antya 19.43

TEXT 43

TEXT

mora sei kala-nidhi, prana-raksa-mahausadhi,

sakhi, mora tenho suhrttama

deha jiye tanha vine, dhik ei jivane,

vidhi kare eta vidambana!"

SYNONYMS

mora -- of Me; sei -- that; kala-nidhi -- reservoir of art and culture;

prana-raksa -- maha-ausaudhi -- the panacea for saving My life; sakhi --

O My dear friend; mora -- My; tenho-He; suhrt-tama -- the best of

friends; deha jiye -- My body lives; tanha vine -- without Him; dhik --

condemnation; ei jivane -- to this life; vidhi -- Providence; kare --

does; eta vidambana -- so much cheating.

TRANSLATION

"Krsna is the reservoir of art and culture, and He is the panacea that

saves My life. O My dear friend, since I live without Him, who is the

best among My friends, I condemn the duration of My life. I think that

Providence has cheated Me in many ways.

Antya 19.44

TEXT 44

TEXT

'ye-jana jite nahi caya, tare kene jiyaya',

vidhi-prati uthe krodha-soka

vidhire kare bhartsana, krsne dena olahana,

padi' bhagavatera eka sloka

SYNONYMS

ye-jana -- that person who; jite -- to live; nahi caya -- does not want;

tare -- him; kene -- why; jiyaya -- he makes life continue; vidhi-prati -

- towards Providence; uthe -- awakens; krodha-soka -- anger and

lamentation; vidhire -- unto Providence; kare -- does; bhartsana --

chastisement; krsne -- unto Lord Krsna; dena -- gives; olahana --

accusation; padi' -- reading; bhagavatera -- of Srimad-Bhagavatam; eka

sloka -- one verse.

TRANSLATION

"Why does Providence continue the life of one who does not wish to live?"

This thought aroused anger and lamentation. Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu

then read a verse from Srimad-Bhagavatam that chastises

Providence and makes an accusation against Krsna.

Antya 19.45

TEXT 45

TEXT

aho vidhatas tava na kvacid daya

samyojya maitrya pranayena dehinah

tams cakrtarthan viyunanksy aparthakam

vicestitam te 'rbhaka-cestitam yatha

SYNONYMS

aho -- alas; vidhatah -- O Providence; tava -- your; na -- not; kvacit --

at any time; daya -- mercy; samyojya -- making connections; maitrya --

by friendship; pranayena -- and by affection; dehinah -- of the embodied

souls; tan -- them; ca -- and; akrta-arthan -- without achievement;

viyunanksi -- you cause to happen; aparthakam -- separation; vicestitam -

- activities; te -- your; arbhaka -- of a boy; cestitam -- the childish

play; yatha -- like.

TRANSLATION

" 'O Providence, you have no mercy! You bring embodied souls together

through friendship and affection, but before their desires are fulfilled,

you separate them. Your activities are like the foolish pranks of

children.'

PURPORT

This verse, quoted from Srimad-Bhagavatam (10.39.19), was chanted by the

damsels of Vraja when Krsna left Vrndavana for Mathura with Akrura and

Balarama. The gopis lamented that providence had made it possible for

them to meet Krsna and Balarama in affection and love and had then

separated them.

Antya 19.46

TEXT 46

TEXT

"na janis prema-marma, vyartha karis parisrama,

tora cesta -- balaka-samana

'tora yadi lag paiye, tabe tore siksa diye,

emana yena na karis vidhana

SYNONYMS

na janis -- you do not know; prema-marma -- the purport of loving

affairs; vyartha karis -- you baffle; parisrama -- all labor; tora cesta

-- your activities; balaka-samana -- like the childish activities of a

boy; tora yadi lag paiye -- if I get the opportunity to meet you; tabe --

then; tore -- unto you; siksa diye -- I shall give some lessons; emana -

- like this; yena -- so that; na karis vidhana -- will not make

arrangements.

TRANSLATION

"Providence, you do not know the purport of loving affairs, and

therefore you baffle all our endeavors. This is very childish of you. If

we could catch you, we would give you such a lesson that you would never

again make such arrangements.

Antya 19.47

TEXT 47

TEXT

are vidhi, tui bada-i nithura

anyo 'nya durlabha jana, preme karana sammilana,

'akrtarthan' kene karis dura?

SYNONYMS

are -- oh; vidhi -- Providence; tui -- you; bada-i -- very; nithura --

cruel; anyo 'nya -- for one another; durlabha jana -- persons rarely

obtained; preme -- in love; karana sammilana -- causing to meet together;

akrta-arthan -- unsuccessful; kene -- why; karis -- you do; dura -- far

apart.

TRANSLATION

"Oh, cruel Providence! You are very unkind, for you bring together in

love people who are rarely in touch with each other. Then, after you

have made them meet but before they are fulfilled, you again spread them

far apart.

Antya 19.48

TEXT 48

TEXT

are vidhi akaruna, dekhana krsnanana,

netra-mana lobhaila mora

ksaneke karite pana, kadi' nila anya sthana

papa kaili 'datta-apahara'

SYNONYMS

are -- oh; vidhi -- Providence; akaruna -- most unkind; dekhana --

showing; krsna-anana -- the beautiful face of Krsna; netra-mana -- mind

and eyes; lobhaila -- have made greedy; mora -- My; ksaneke karite pana -

- drinking only for a moment; kadi' nila -- took it away; anya sthana --

to another place; papa kaili -- have performed a most sinful act; datta-

apahara -- taking back things given in charity.

TRANSLATION

"O Providence, you are so unkind! You reveal the beautiful face of Krsna

and make the mind and eyes greedy, but after they have drunk that nectar

for only a moment, you whisk Krsna away to another place. This is a

great sin because you thus take away what you have given as charity.

Antya 19.49

TEXT 49

TEXT

'akrura kare tomara dosa, amaya kene kara rosa',

iha yadi kaha 'duracara'

tui akrura-murti dhari', krsna nili curi kari',

anyera nahe aiche vyavahara

SYNONYMS

akrura -- Akrura; kare -- does; tomara dosa -- fault to you; amaya --

unto me; kene -- why; kara -- you do; rosa -- anger; iha -- this; yadi --

if; kaha -- you say; duracara -- O misbehaved (Providence); tui -- you;

akrura-murti dhari' -- taking the form of Akrura; krsna -- Lord Krsna;

nili -- you have taken; curi kari' -- stealing; anyera -- of others;

nahe -- there is not; aiche -- this type of; vyavahara -- behavior.

TRANSLATION

"O misbehaved Providence! If you reply to us, 'Akrura is actually at

fault; why are you angry with me?' then I say to you, 'Providence, you

have taken the form of Akrura and have stolen Krsna away. No one else

would behave like this.'

Antya 19.50

TEXT 50

TEXT

apanara karma-dosa, tore kiba kari rosa,

toya-moya sambandha vidura

ye amara prana-natha, ekatra rahi yanra satha,

sei krsna ha-ila nithura!

SYNONYMS

apanara karma-dosa -- it is the result of My own fate; tore -- unto you;

kiba -- what; kari rosa -- I give accusations; toya-moya -- between you

and Me; sambandha -- the relationship; vidura -- very far; ye -- the one

who is; amara -- My; prana-natha -- life and soul; ekatra -- together;

rahi -- We remain; yanra satha -- with whom; sei krsna -- that Krsna; ha-

ila nithura -- has become so cruel.

TRANSLATION

"But this is the fault of My own destiny. Why should I needlessly accuse

you? There is no intimate relationship between you and Me. Krsna,

however, is My life and soul. It is We who live together, and it is He

who has become so cruel.

Antya 19.51

TEXT 51

TEXT

saba tyaji' bhaji yanre, sei apana-hate mare,

nari-vadhe krsnera nahi bhaya

tanra lagi' ami mari, ulati' na cahe hari,

ksana-matre bhangila pranaya

SYNONYMS

saba tyaji' -- leaving everything aside; bhaji yanre -- the person whom

I worship; sei -- that person; apana-hate -- by His own hand; mare --

kills; nari-vadhe -- in killing one woman; krsnera -- of Krsna; nahi

bhaya -- there is no fear; tanra lagi' -- for Him; ami mari -- I die;

ulati' -- turning back; na cahe hari -- Krsna does not look; ksana-matre

-- within a moment; bhangila -- has broken; pranaya -- all loving

affairs.

TRANSLATION

"He for whom I have left everything is personally killing Me with His

own hands. Krsna has no fear of killing women. Indeed, I am dying for

Him, but He doesn't even turn back to look at Me. Within a moment, He

has broken off our loving affairs.

Antya 19.52

TEXT 52

TEXT

krsne kene kari rosa, apana durdaiva-dosa,

pakila mora ei papa-phala

ye krsna -- mora premadhina, tare kaila udasina,

ei mora abhagya prabala"

SYNONYMS

krsne -- unto Krsna; kene -- why; kari rosa -- I am angry; apana -- of

My own; durdaiva -- of misfortune; dosa -- fault; pakila -- has ripened;

mora -- My; ei -- this; papa-phala -- sinful reaction; ye -- that; krsna

-- Krsna; mora -- My; prema-adhina -- dependent on love; tare -- Him;

kaila -- has made; udasina -- indifferent; ei mora -- this is My;

abhagya -- misfortune; prabala -- very strong.

TRANSLATION

"Yet why should I be angry with Krsna? It is the fault of My own

misfortune. The fruit of my sinful activities has ripened, and therefore

Krsna, who has always been dependent on My love, is now indifferent.

This means that My misfortune is very strong."

Antya 19.53

TEXT 53

TEXT

ei-mata gaura-raya, visade kare haya haya,

'ha ha krsna, tumi gela kati?'

gopi-bhava hrdaye, tara vakye vilapaye,

'govinda damodara madhaveti'

SYNONYMS

ei-mata -- in this way; gaura-raya -- Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu;

visade -- in lamentation due to separation; kare haya haya -- always

says "alas, alas"; ha ha krsna -- oh, oh Krsna; tumi gela kati -- where

have You gone; gopi-bhava hrdaye -- with the ecstatic love of the gopis

in His heart; tara vakye -- in their words; vilapaye -- He laments;

govinda damodara madhava -- O Govinda, O Damodara, O Madhava; iti --

thus.

TRANSLATION

In this way, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu lamented in the mood of separation,

"Alas, alas! O Krsna, where have You gone?" Feeling in His heart the

ecstatic emotions of the gopis, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu agonized in

their words, saying, "O Govinda! O Damodara! O Madhava!"

Antya 19.54

TEXT 54

TEXT

tabe svarupa-rama-raya, kari' nana upaya,

mahaprabhura kare asvasana

gayena sangama-gita, prabhura phiraila cita,

prabhura kichu sthira haila mana

SYNONYMS

tabe -- thereafter; svarupa-rama-raya -- Svarupa Damodara Gosvami and

Ramananda Raya; kari' nana upaya -- devising many means; mahaprabhura --

Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; kare asvasana -- pacify; gayena -- they sang;

sangama-gita -- meeting songs; prabhura -- of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu;

phiraila cita -- transformed the heart; prabhura -- of Sri Caitanya

Mahaprabhu; kichu -- somewhat; sthira -- peaceful; haila -- became; mana

-- the mind.

TRANSLATION

Svarupa Damodara and Ramananda Raya then devised various means to pacify

the Lord. They sang songs of meeting that transformed His heart and made

His mind peaceful.

Antya 19.55

TEXT 55

TEXT

ei-mata vilapite ardha-ratri gela

gambhirate svarupa-gosani prabhure soyaila

SYNONYMS

ei-mata -- in this way; vilapite -- speaking in lamentation; ardha-ratri

gela -- half the night passed; gambhirate -- in the room known as the

Gambhira; svarupa-gosani -- Svarupa Damodara Gosvami; prabhure soyaila --

made the Lord lie down.

TRANSLATION

As Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu lamented in this way, half the night passed.

Then Svarupa Damodara made the Lord lie down in the room known as the

Gambhira.

Antya 19.56

TEXT 56

TEXT

prabhure soyana ramananda gela ghare

svarupa, govinda suila gambhirara dvare

SYNONYMS

prabhure -- Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; soyana -- making lie down;

ramananda -- Ramananda Raya; gela ghare -- returned to his home; svarupa

-- Svarupa Damodara Gosvami; govinda -- Govinda; suila -- lay down;

gambhirara dvare -- at the door of the Gambhira.

TRANSLATION

After the Lord was made to lie down, Ramananda Raya returned home, and

Svarupa Damodara and Govinda lay down at the door of the Gambhira.

Antya 19.57

TEXT 57

TEXT

premavese mahaprabhura gara-gara mana

nama-sankirtana kari' karena jagarana

SYNONYMS

prema-avese -- in greatly ecstatic emotion; mahaprabhura -- of Sri

Caitanya Mahaprabhu; gara-gara mana -- the mind was fully overwhelmed;

nama-sankirtana kari' -- chanting the Hare Krsna mantra; karena -- does;

jagarana -- wakefulness.

TRANSLATION

Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu stayed awake all night, chanting the Hare Krsna

maha-mantra, His mind overwhelmed by spiritual ecstasy.

Antya 19.58

TEXT 58

TEXT

virahe vyakula prabhu udvege uthila

gambhirara bhittye mukha ghasite lagila

SYNONYMS

virahe -- in the lamentation of separation; vyakula -- very

agitated; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; udvege -- in great anxiety;

uthila -- stood up; gambhirara -- of the Gambhira; bhittye -- on the

walls; mukha -- face; ghasite -- to rub; lagila -- began.

TRANSLATION

Feeling separation from Krsna, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu was so distraught

that in great anxiety He stood up and began rubbing His face against the

walls of the Gambhira.

Antya 19.59

TEXT 59

TEXT

mukhe, gande, nake ksata ha-ila apara

bhavavese na janena prabhu, pade rakta-dhara

SYNONYMS

mukhe -- on the mouth; gande -- on the cheeks; nake -- on the nose;

ksata -- injuries; ha-ila -- there were; apara -- many; bhava-avese --

in ecstatic emotion; na janena -- could not understand; prabhu -- Sri

Caitanya Mahaprabhu; pade -- oozes out; rakta-dhara -- a flow of blood.

TRANSLATION

Blood oozed from the many injuries on His mouth, nose and cheeks, but

due to His ecstatic emotions, the Lord did not know it.

Antya 19.60

TEXT 60

TEXT

sarva-ratri karena bhave mukha sangharsana

gon-gon-sabda karena, -- svarupa sunila takhana

SYNONYMS

sarva-ratri -- the whole night; karena -- does; bhave -- in emotion;

mukha sangharsana -- rubbing of the face; gon-gon-sabda karena -- makes

a peculiar sound, gon-gon; svarupa -- Svarupa Damodara Gosvami; sunila --

heard; takhana -- then.

TRANSLATION

In ecstasy, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu rubbed His face against the walls

all night long, making a peculiar sound, "gon-gon," which Svarupa

Damodara could hear through the door.

Antya 19.61

TEXT 61

TEXT

dipa jvali' ghare gela, dekhi' prabhura mukha

svarupa, govinda dunhara haila bada duhkha

SYNONYMS

dipa jvali' -- lighting the lamp; ghare -- in the room; gela -- went;

dekhi' -- seeing; prabhura mukha -- the face of the Lord; svarupa --

Svarupa Damodara Gosvami; govinda -- and Govinda; dunhara -- of both of

them; haila bada duhkha -- there was great unhappiness.

TRANSLATION

Lighting a lamp, Svarupa Damodara and Govinda entered the room. When

they saw the Lord's face, both of them were full of sorrow.

Antya 19.62

TEXT 62

TEXT

prabhure sayyate ani' susthira karaila

'kanhe kaila ei tumi?' -- svarupa puchila

SYNONYMS

prabhure -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; sayyate -- to the bed; ani' --

bringing; susthira karaila -- made Him pacified; kanhe -- why;

kaila -- have done; ei -- this; tumi -- You; svarupa puchila -- Svarupa

Damodara Gosvami inquired.

TRANSLATION

They brought the Lord to His bed, calmed Him and then asked, "Why have

You done this to Yourself?"

Antya 19.63

TEXT 63

TEXT

prabhu kahena, -- "udvege ghare na pari rahite

dvara cahi' buli' sighra bahira ha-ite

SYNONYMS

prabhu kahena -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu replied; udvege -- out of great

agitation; ghare -- within the room; na pari -- I was not able; rahite --

to stay; dvara cahi' -- looking for the door; buli' -- wandering;

sighra -- quickly; bahira ha-ite -- to get out.

TRANSLATION

Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu replied, "I was in such anxiety that I could not

stay in the room. I wanted to go out, and therefore I wandered about the

room, looking for the door.

Antya 19.64

TEXT 64

TEXT

dvara nahi' pana mukha lage cari-bhite

ksata haya, rakta pade, na pai yaite"

SYNONYMS

dvara nahi' pana -- not finding the door; mukha lage -- My face strikes;

cari-bhite -- on the four walls; ksata haya -- there was injury; rakta

pade -- blood came out; na pai yaite -- still I could not get out.

TRANSLATION

"Unable to find the door, I kept hitting the four walls with My face. My

face was injured, and it bled, but I still could not get out."

Antya 19.65

TEXT 65

TEXT

unmada-dasaya prabhura sthira nahe mana

yei kare, yei bole saba, -- unmada-laksana

SYNONYMS

unmada-dasaya -- in such a state of madness; prabhura -- of Sri Caitanya

Mahaprabhu; sthira nahe mana -- the mind is not steady; yei kare --

whatever He does; yei bole -- whatever He says; saba -- all; unmada-

laksana -- simply symptoms of madness.

TRANSLATION

In this state of madness, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu's mind was unsteady.

Whatever He said or did was all symptomatic of madness.

Antya 19.66

TEXT 66

TEXT

svarupa-gosani tabe cinta paila mane

bhakta-gana lana vicara kaila ara dine

SYNONYMS

svarupa-gosani -- Svarupa Damodara Gosvami; tabe -- thereafter; cinta --

an anxiety or thought; paila mane -- got in his mind; bhakta-gana lana --

among all the devotees; vicara kaila -- considered; ara dine -- the

next day.

TRANSLATION

Svarupa Damodara was very anxious, but then he had an idea. The

following day, he and the other devotees considered it together.

Antya 19.67

TEXT 67

TEXT

saba bhakta meli' tabe prabhure sadhila

sankara-pandite prabhura sange soyaila

SYNONYMS

saba bhakta meli' -- all the devotees, meeting together; tabe --

thereupon; prabhure sadhila -- entreated Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu;

sankara-pandite -- Sankara Pandita; prabhura -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu;

sange -- with; soyaila -- made to lie down.

TRANSLATION

After consulting with one another, they entreated Sri Caitanya

Mahaprabhu to allow Sankara Pandita to lie down in the same room with

Him.

Antya 19.68

TEXT 68

TEXT

prabhu-pada-tale sankara karena sayana

prabhu tanra upara karena pada-prasarana

SYNONYMS

prabhu-pada-tale -- at the lotus feet of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu;

sankara -- Sankara; karena sayana -- lies down; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya

Mahaprabhu; tanra -- of him; upara -- on the body; karena -- does; pada-

prasarana -- extending His legs.

TRANSLATION

Thus Sankara Pandita lay at the feet of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, and the

Lord placed His legs upon Sankara's body.

Antya 19.69

TEXT 69

TEXT

'prabhu-padopadhana' bali' tanra nama ha-ila

purve vidure yena sri-suka varnila

SYNONYMS

prabhu-pada-upadhana -- the pillow of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu's legs;

bali' -- calling as such; tanra nama -- his name; ha-ila -- became;

purve -- formerly; vidure -- Vidura; yena -- as; sri-suka varnila -- Sri

Sukadeva Gosvami described.

TRANSLATION

Sankara became celebrated by the name "the pillow of

Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu." He was like Vidura, as Sukadeva Gosvami

previously described him.

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TEXT

iti bruvanam viduram vinitam

sahasra-sirsnas caranopadhanam

prahrsta-roma bhagavat-kathayam

praniyamano munir abhyacasta

SYNONYMS

iti -- thus; bruvanam -- speaking; viduram -- to Vidura; vinitam --

submissive; sahasra-sirsnah -- of Lord Krsna; carana-upadhanam -- the

resting pillow for the legs; prahrsta-roma -- whose hairs on the body

were standing; bhagavat-kathayam -- in topics of the Supreme Personality

of Godhead; praniyamanah -- being induced; munih -- the great sage

Maitreya; abhyacasta -- began to speak.

TRANSLATION

"When submissive Vidura, the resting place of the legs of Lord Krsna,

had thus spoken to Maitreya, Maitreya began speaking, his hair standing

on end due to the transcendental pleasure of discussing topics

concerning Lord Krsna."

PURPORT

This is a quotation from Srimad-Bhagavatam (3.13.5).

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TEXT

sankara karena prabhura pada-samvahana

ghumana padena, taiche karena sayana

SYNONYMS

sankara -- Sankara; karena -- does; prabhura -- of Sri Caitanya

Mahaprabhu; pada-samvahana -- massaging the legs; ghumana padena -- he

falls asleep; taiche -- in that way; karena sayana -- he lies down.

TRANSLATION

Sankara massaged the legs of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, but while

massaging he would fall asleep and thus lie down.

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TEXT

ughada-ange padiya sankara nidra yaya

prabhu uthi' apana-kantha tahare jadaya

SYNONYMS

ughada-ange -- without a covering over the body; padiya -- lying down;

sankara -- Sankara; nidra yaya -- goes to sleep; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya

Mahaprabhu; uthi' -- getting up; apana-kantha -- His own quilt; tahare

jadaya -- wraps him with.

TRANSLATION

He would lie asleep without a covering on his body, and Sri Caitanya

Mahaprabhu would get up and wrap him with His own quilt.

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TEXT

nirantara ghumaya sankara sighra-cetana

vasi' pada capi' kare ratri-jagarana

SYNONYMS

nirantara -- incessantly; ghumaya -- sleeps; sankara -- Sankara; sighra -

- very quickly; cetana -- waking up; vasi' -- sitting; pada capi' --

massaging the legs; kare -- does; ratri-jagarana -- keeps awake at night.

TRANSLATION

Sankara Pandita would always fall asleep, but he would quickly awaken,

sit up and again begin massaging the legs of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu. In

this way he would stay awake the entire night.

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TEXT

tanra bhaye narena prabhu bahire yaite

tanra bhaye narena bhittye mukhabja ghasite

SYNONYMS

tanra bhaye -- because of fear of him; narena -- was not able; prabhu --

Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; bahire yaite -- to go out; tanra bhaye --

because of fear of him; narena -- was not able; bhittye -- on the walls;

mukha-abja ghasite -- to rub His lotuslike face.

TRANSLATION

Out of fear of Sankara, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu could neither leave His

room nor rub His lotuslike face against the walls.

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TEXT

ei lila mahaprabhura raghunatha-dasa

gauranga-stava-kalpavrkse kariyache prakasa

SYNONYMS

ei lila -- this pastime; mahaprabhura -- of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu;

raghunatha-dasa -- Raghunatha dasa Gosvami; gauranga-stava-kalpa-vrkse --

in his book known as Gauranga-stava-kalpavrksa; kariyache prakasa --

has described very nicely.

TRANSLATION

This pastime of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu's has been described very nicely

by Raghunatha dasa Gosvami in his book known as Gauranga-stava-

kalpavrksa.

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TEXT

svakiyasya pranarbuda-sadrsa-gosthasya virahat

pralapan unmadat satatam ati kurvan vikala-dhih

dadhad bhittau sasvad vadana-vidhu-gharsena rudhiram

ksatottham gaurango hrdaya udayan mam madayati

SYNONYMS

svakiyasya -- His own; prana-arbuda -- uncountable breaths of life;

sadrsa -- like; gosthasya -- of Vrndavana; virahat -- because of

separation; pralapan -- crazy talks; unmadat -- because of madness;

satatam -- always; ati -- very much; kurvan -- doing; vikala-dhih --

whose intelligence was disturbed; dadhat -- oozing forth; bhittau -- on

the walls; sasvat -- always; vadana-vidhu -- of His moonlike face;

gharsena -- by rubbing; rudhiram -- blood; ksata-uttham -- coming forth

from injuries; gaurangah -- Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; hrdaye -- in

my heart; udayan -- rising; mam -- me; madayati -- maddens.

TRANSLATION

"Because of separation from His many friends in Vrndavana, who were like

His own life, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu spoke like a madman. His

intelligence was transformed. Day and night He rubbed His moonlike face

against the walls, and blood flowed from the injuries. May that Sri

Caitanya Mahaprabhu rise in my heart and make me mad with love."

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TEXT

ei-mata mahaprabhu ratri-divase

prema-sindhu-magna rahe, kabhu dube, bhase

SYNONYMS

ei-mata -- in this way; mahaprabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; ratri-

divase -- day and night; prema-sindhu-magna rahe -- remains merged in

the ocean of love of Krsna; kabhu dube -- sometimes drowns; bhase --

floats.

TRANSLATION

Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu in this way stayed immersed day and

night in an ocean of ecstatic love for Krsna. Sometimes He was submerged,

and sometimes He floated.

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TEXT

eka-kale vaisakhera paurnamasi-dine

ratri-kale mahaprabhu calila udyane

SYNONYMS

eka-kale -- at one time; vaisakhera -- of the month of Vaisakha, (

April-May); paurnamasi-dine -- on the full-moon night; ratri-kale -- at

night; mahaprabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; calila -- went; udyane --

to a garden.

TRANSLATION

One full-moon night in the month of Vaisakha [April and May], Sri

Caitanya Mahaprabhu went to a garden.

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TEXT

'jagannatha-vallabha' nama udyana-pradhane

pravesa karila prabhu lana bhakta-gane

SYNONYMS

jagannatha-vallabha -- Jagannatha-vallabha; nama -- named; udyana-

pradhane -- one of the best gardens; pravesa karila -- entered; prabhu --

Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; lana -- taking; bhakta-gane -- the devotees.

TRANSLATION

The Lord, along with His devotees, entered one of the nicest gardens,

called Jagannatha-vallabha.

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TEXT

praphullita vrksa-valli, -- yena vrndavana

suka, sari, pika, bhrnga kare alapana

SYNONYMS

praphullita -- fully blossomed; vrksa-valli -- trees and creepers; yena

vrndavana -- exactly resembling Vrndavana; suka -- the suka birds; sari -

- the sari birds; pika -- the pika birds; bhrnga -- the bumblebees; kare

-- do; alapana -- talking with one another.

TRANSLATION

In the garden were fully blossomed trees and creepers exactly like those

in Vrndavana. Bumblebees and birds like the suka, sari and pika talked

with one another.

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TEXT

puspa-gandha lana vahe malaya-pavana

'guru' hana taru-lataya sikhaya nacana

SYNONYMS

puspa-gandha -- the fragrance of the flowers; lana -- taking; vahe --

blows; malaya-pavana -- the mild breeze; guru hana -- becoming the

spiritual master; taru-lataya -- to the trees and creepers; sikhaya --

instructs; nacana -- dancing.

TRANSLATION

A mild breeze was blowing, carrying the fragrance of aromatic flowers.

The breeze had become a guru and was teaching all the trees and creepers

how to dance.

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TEXT

purna-candra-candrikaya parama ujjvala

taru-latadi jyotsnaya kare jhalamala

SYNONYMS

purna-candra -- of the full moon; candrikaya -- by the shine; parama --

very; ujjvala -- bright; taru-lata-adi -- the creepers, trees and so on;

jyotsnaya -- in the illumination of the moonshine; kare -- do; jhalamala

-- glittering.

TRANSLATION

Brightly illuminated by the full moon, the trees and creepers glittered

in the light.

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TEXT

chaya rtu-gana yahan vasanta pradhana

dekhi' anandita haila gaura bhagavan

SYNONYMS

chaya -- six; rtu-gana -- seasons; yahan -- where; vasanta pradhana --

the spring season was chief; dekhi' -- seeing; anandita -- very pleased;

haila -- became; gaura -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; bhagavan -- the

Supreme Personality of Godhead.

TRANSLATION

The six seasons, especially spring, seemed present there. Seeing the

garden, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, the Supreme Personality of Godhead, was

very happy.

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TEXT

"lalita-lavanga-lata" pada gaoyana

nrtya kari' bulena prabhu nija-gana lana

SYNONYMS

lalita-lavanga-lata -- beginning with the words lalita-lavanga-lata;

pada -- the verse; gaoyana -- making sing; nrtya kari' -- dancing;

bulena -- wanders; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; nija-gana lana --

accompanied by His personal associates.

TRANSLATION

In this atmosphere, the Lord had His associates sing a verse from the

Gita-govinda, beginning with the words "lalita-lavanga-lata," as He

danced and wandered about with them.

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TEXT 85

TEXT

prati-vrksa-valli aiche bhramite bhramite

asokera tale krsne dekhena acambite

SYNONYMS

prati-vrksa-valli -- around each and every tree and creeper; aiche -- in

that way; bhramite bhramite -- wandering; asokera tale -- underneath an

asoka tree; krsne -- Lord Krsna; dekhena -- He sees; acambite --

suddenly.

TRANSLATION

As He thus wandered around every tree and creeper, He came beneath an

asoka tree and suddenly saw Lord Krsna.

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TEXT

krsna dekhi' mahaprabhu dhana calila

age dekhi' hasi' krsna antardhana ha-ila

SYNONYMS

krsna dekhi' -- seeing Krsna; mahaprabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu;

dhana calila -- began to run very swiftly; age -- ahead; dekhi' --

seeing; hasi' -- smiling; krsna -- Lord Krsna; antardhana ha-ila --

disappeared.

TRANSLATION

When He saw Krsna, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu began running very swiftly,

but Krsna smiled and disappeared.

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TEXT

age paila krsne, tanre punah harana

bhumete padila prabhu murcchita hana

SYNONYMS

age -- in the beginning; paila -- got; krsne -- Lord Krsna; tanre -- Him;

punah -- again; harana -- losing; bhumete -- on the ground; padila --

fell down; prabhu -- Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; murcchita --

unconscious; hana -- becoming.

TRANSLATION

Having first gotten Krsna and then having lost Him again, Sri Caitanya

Mahaprabhu fell to the ground unconscious.

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TEXT

krsnera sri-anga-gandhe bhariche udyane

sei gandha pana prabhu haila acetane

SYNONYMS

krsnera -- of Lord Krsna; sri-anga-gandhe -- the aroma of the

transcendental body; bhariche -- filled; udyane -- in the garden; sei

gandha pana -- getting that aroma; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu;

haila -- became; acetane -- unconscious.

TRANSLATION

The entire garden was filled with the scent of Lord Sri Krsna's

transcendental body. When Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu smelled it, He fell

unconscious at once.

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TEXT

nirantara nasaya pase krsna-parimala

gandha asvadite prabhu ha-ila pagala

SYNONYMS

nirantara -- incessantly; nasaya -- in the nostrils; pase -- enters;

krsna-parimala -- the scent of Krsna's body; gandha asvadite -- to

relish the fragrance; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; ha-ila pagala --

became mad.

TRANSLATION

The scent of Krsna's body, however, incessantly entered His nostrils,

and the Lord became mad to relish it.

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TEXT

krsna-gandha-lubdha radha sakhire ye kahila

sei sloka padi' prabhu artha karila

SYNONYMS

krsna-gandha -- the scent of the body of Krsna; lubdha -- hankering

after; radha -- Srimati Radharani; sakhire -- to the gopi friends; ye

kahila -- whatever She said; sei -- that; sloka -- verse; padi' --

reciting; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; artha karila -- explained

its meaning.

TRANSLATION

Srimati Radharani expressed to Her gopi friends

how She hankers for the transcendental scent of Krsna's body. Sri

Caitanya Mahaprabhu recited that same verse and made its meaning clear.

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TEXT

kuranga-mada-jid-vapuh-parimalormi-krstanganah

svakanga-nalinastake sasi-yutabja-gandha-prathah

madenduvara-candanaguru-sugandhi-carcarcitah

sa me madana-mohanah sakhi tanoti nasa-sprham

SYNONYMS

kuranga-mada-jit -- conquering the aromatic smell of musk; vapuh -- of

His transcendental body; parimala-urmi -- with waves of scent; krsta-

anganah -- attracting the gopis of Vrndavana; svaka-anga-nalina-astake --

on all eight different lotuslike parts of the body (face, navel, eyes,

palms and feet); sasi-yuta-abja-gandha-prathah -- who distributes the

scent of lotus mixed with camphor; mada-induvara-candana-aguru-

sugandhi-carca-arcitah -- smeared with the unguents of musk, camphor,

white sandalwood and aguru; sah -- He; me -- My; madana-mohanah -- Lord

Krsna, who enchants even Cupid; sakhi -- O My dear friends; tanoti --

increases; nasa-sprham -- the desire of My nostrils.

TRANSLATION

" 'The scent of Krsna's transcendental body surpasses the aroma of musk

and attracts the minds of all women. The eight lotuslike parts of His

body distribute the fragrance of lotuses mixed with that of camphor. His

body is anointed with aromatic substances like musk, camphor, sandalwood

and aguru. O My dear friend, that Personality of Godhead, also known as

the enchanter of Cupid, always increases the desire of My nostrils.'

PURPORT

This is a verse found in Govinda-lilamrta (8.6).

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TEXT

kasturika-nilotpala, tara yei parimala,

taha jini' krsna-anga-gandha

vyape caudda-bhuvane, kare sarva akarsane,

nari-ganera ankhi kare andha

SYNONYMS

kasturika -- musk; nilotpala -- combined with the bluish lotus flower;

tara -- its; yei -- whatever; parimala -- scent; taha -- that; jini' --

conquering; krsna-anga -- of the transcendental body of Krsna; gandha --

the scent; vyape -- spreads; caudda-bhuvane -- throughout the fourteen

worlds; kare -- does; sarva akarsane -- attracting everyone; nari-ganera

-- of the women; ankhi -- the eyes; kare -- makes; andha -- blind.

TRANSLATION

"The scent of Krsna's body surpasses the fragrances of musk and the

bluish lotus flower. Spreading throughout the fourteen worlds, it

attracts everyone and makes the eyes of all women blind.

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TEXT

sakhi he, krsna-gandha jagat mataya

narira nasate pase, sarva-kala tahan vaise,

krsna-pasa dhari' lana yaya

SYNONYMS

sakhi he -- O My dear friend; krsna-gandha -- the fragrance of the body

of Krsna; jagat mataya -- enchants the whole world; narira -- of women;

nasate -- in the nostrils; pase -- enters; sarva-kala -- always; tahan --

there; vaise -- remains; krsna-pasa -- to the side of Lord Krsna; dhari'

-- catching; lana yaya -- takes one.

TRANSLATION

"My dear friend, the scent of Krsna's body enchants the entire world. It

especially enters the nostrils of women and remains seated there. Thus

it captures them and forcibly brings them to Krsna.

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TEXT

netra-nabhi, vadana, kara-yuga carana,

ei asta-padma krsna-ange

karpura-lipta kamala, tara yaiche parimala,

sei gandha asta-padma-sange

SYNONYMS

netra -- the eyes; nabhi -- the navel; vadana -- the face; kara-yuga --

the palms; carana -- the feet; ei -- these; asta -- eight; padma --

lotus flowers; krsna-ange -- in the body of Krsna; karpura -- with

camphor; lipta -- smeared; kamala -- the lotus flower; tara -- of that;

yaiche -- like; parimala -- the fragrance; sei gandha -- that fragrance;

asta-padma-sange -- is associated with the eight lotus flowers.

TRANSLATION

"Krsna's eyes, navel and face, hands and feet are like eight lotus

flowers on His body. From those eight lotuses emanates a fragrance like

a mixture of camphor and lotus. That is the scent associated with His

body.

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TEXT

hema-kilita candana, taha kari' gharsana,

tahe aguru, kunkuma, kasturi

karpura-sane carca ange, purva angera gandha sange,

mili' tare yena kaila curi

SYNONYMS

hema -- with gold; kilita -- bedecked; candana -- white sandalwood; taha

-- that; kari' -- doing; gharsana -- rubbing; tahe -- in that; aguru --

the aguru flavor; kunkuma -- kunkuma; kasturi -- and musk; karpura --

camphor; sane -- with; carca -- smearing; ange -- on the body; purva --

previous; angera -- of the body; gandha -- scent; sange -- with; mili' --

combining; tare -- that; yena -- as if; kaila -- did; curi -- stealing

or covering.

TRANSLATION

"When sandalwood pulp with aguru, kunkuma and musk is mixed

with camphor and spread on Krsna's body, it combines with Krsna's own

original bodily perfume and seems to cover it.

PURPORT

In another version, the last line of this verse reads, kamadevera mana

kaila curi. This means "the scent of all these substances mixes with the

previous scent of Krsna's body and steals away the mind of Cupid."

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TEXT

hare narira tanu-mana, nasa kare ghurnana,

khasaya nivi, chutaya kesa-bandha

kariya age bauri, nacaya jagat-nari,

hena dakatiya krsnanga-gandha

SYNONYMS

hare -- enchants; narira -- of women; tanu-mana -- the minds and bodies;

nasa -- the nostrils; kare ghurnana -- bewilders; khasaya -- slackens;

nivi -- the belt; chutaya -- loosens; kesa-bandha -- the bunch of hair;

kariya -- acting; age -- in front; bauri -- like madwomen; nacaya --

causes to dance; jagat-nari -- all the women of the world; hena -- such;

dakatiya -- a plunderer; krsna-anga-gandha -- the scent of Krsna's body.

TRANSLATION

"The scent of Krsna's transcendental body is so attractive that it

enchants the bodies and minds of all women. It bewilders their nostrils,

loosens their belts and hair, and makes them madwomen. All the women of

world come under its influence, and therefore the scent of Krsna's

body is like a plunderer.

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TEXT

sei gandha-vasa nasa, sada kare gandhera asa,

kabhu paya, kabhu nahi paya

paile piya peta bhare, pina pina tabu kare,

na paile trsnaya mari' yaya

SYNONYMS

sei -- that; gandha-vasa -- under the control of the fragrance; nasa --

the nostrils; sada -- always; kare -- make; gandhera -- for the

fragrance; asa -- hope; kabhu paya -- sometimes they obtain; kabhu nahi

paya -- sometimes do not obtain; paile -- if obtaining; piya -- drinking;

peta -- the belly; bhare -- fills; pina -- let me drink; pina -- let me

drink; tabu -- still; kare -- they hanker; na paile -- if they do not

get; trsnaya -- out of thirst; mari' yaya -- they die.

TRANSLATION

"Falling completely under its influence, the nostrils yearn for it

continuously, although sometimes they obtain it and sometimes not. When

they do they drink their fill, though they still want more and more, but

if they don't, out of thirst they die.

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TEXT

madana-mohana-nata, pasari gandhera hata,

jagan-nari-grahake lobhaya

vina-mulye deya gandha, gandha diya kare andha,

ghara yaite patha nahi paya"

SYNONYMS

madana-mohana-nata -- the dramatic player Madana-mohana; pasari -- a

dealer; gandhera hata -- in a market of scents; jagat-nari -- of the

women of the whole world; grahake -- to the customers; lobhaya --

attracts; vina-mulye -- without a price; deya -- distributes; gandha --

the scent; gandha diya -- delivering the scent; kare andha -- makes the

customers blind; ghara yaite -- to return home; patha -- the path; nahi

paya -- do not find.

TRANSLATION

"The dramatic actor Madana-mohana has opened a shop of scents that

attract the women of the world to be His customers. He delivers the

scents freely, but they make the women all so blind they cannot find the

path returning home."

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TEXT

ei-mata gaurahari, gandhe kaila mana curi,

bhrnga-praya iti-uti dhaya

yaya vrksa-lata-pase, krsna sphure -- sei ase,

krsna na paya, gandha-matra paya

SYNONYMS

ei-mata -- in this way; gaurahari -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; gandhe --

by the scent; kaila -- did; mana curi -- stealing of the mind; bhrnga-

praya -- just like a bumblebee; iti-uti dhaya -- wanders here and there;

yaya -- goes; vrksa-lata-pase -- by the side of the trees and creepers;

krsna sphure -- Lord Krsna will appear; sei ase -- by that hope; krsna

na paya -- does not obtain Krsna; gandha-matra paya -- gets only the

scent.

TRANSLATION

Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, His mind thus stolen by that scent

, ran here and there like a bumblebee. He ran to the trees and

plants, hoping that Lord Krsna would appear, but instead He found only

the scent of Krsna's body.

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TEXT 100

TEXT

svarupa-ramananda gaya, prabhu nace, sukha paya,

ei-mate pratah-kala haila

svarupa-ramananda-raya, kari nana upaya,

mahaprabhura bahya-sphurti kaila

SYNONYMS

svarupa-ramananda gaya -- Svarupa Damodara Gosvami and Ramananda Raya

sing; prabhu nace -- Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu dances; sukha paya --

enjoys happiness; ei-mate -- in this way; pratah-kala haila -- morning

arrived; svarupa-ramananda-raya -- both Svarupa Damodara Gosvami and

Ramananda Raya; kari -- devising; nana -- various; upaya -- means;

mahaprabhura -- of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; bahya-sphurti kaila --

awakened the external consciousness.

TRANSLATION

Both Svarupa Damodara and Ramananda Raya sang to the Lord, who danced

and enjoyed happiness until the morning arrived. Then they

devised a plan to revive the Lord to external consciousness.

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TEXT 101

TEXT

matr-bhakti, pralapana, bhittye mukha-gharsana,

krsna-gandha-sphurtye divya-nrtya

ei cari-lila-bhede, gaila ei paricchede,

krsnadasa rupa-gosani-bhrtya

SYNONYMS

matr-bhakti -- devotion to His mother; pralapana -- words of madness;

bhittye -- on the walls; mukha-gharsana -- rubbing His face; krsna-

gandha -- of Lord Krsna's fragrance; sphurtye -- on the appearance;

divya-nrtya -- transcendental dancing; ei -- these; cari -- four; lila --

pastimes; bhede -- different; gaila -- has sung; ei paricchede -- in

this chapter; krsnadasa -- Krsnadasa Kaviraja; rupa-gosani-bhrtya --

servant of Srila Rupa Gosvami.

TRANSLATION

Thus, I, Krsnadasa, the servant of Srila Rupa Gosvami, have sung of four

divisions of the Lord's pastimes in this chapter: the Lord's devotion to

His mother, His words of madness, His rubbing His face against the walls

at night, and His dancing at the appearance of Lord Krsna's fragrance.

PURPORT

Krsnadasa Kaviraja Gosvami says that he has been able to describe these

four pastimes of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu by the blessings of Srila Rupa

Gosvami. Krsnadasa Kaviraja Gosvami was not actually a direct disciple

of Srila Rupa Gosvami, but he followed the instructions given by Srila

Rupa Gosvami in Bhakti-rasamrta-sindhu. He therefore acted according

to the directions of Rupa Gosvami and prayed in every chapter for his

mercy.

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ei-mata mahaprabhu pana cetana

snana kari' kaila jagannatha-darasana

SYNONYMS

ei-mata -- in this way; mahaprabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; pana

cetana -- becoming conscious; snana kari' -- after bathing; kaila

jagannatha-darasana -- saw Lord Jagannatha.

TRANSLATION

Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu thus returned to consciousness. He then

bathed and went to see Lord Jagannatha.

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alaukika krsna-lila, divya-sakti tara

tarkera gocara nahe caritra yahara

SYNONYMS

alaukika -- uncommon; krsna-lila -- pastimes of Lord Krsna; divya-sakti -

- transcendental potency; tara -- of that; tarkera -- of argument;

gocara -- within the purview; nahe -- is not; caritra -- the

characteristics; yahara -- of which.

TRANSLATION

The pastimes of Lord Krsna are uncommonly full of transcendental potency.

It is a characteristic of such pastimes that they do not fall within

the jurisdiction of experimental logic and arguments.

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ei prema sada jage yahara antare

panditeha tara cesta bujhite na pare

SYNONYMS

ei -- this; prema -- love of Godhead; sada -- always; jage -- awakens;

yahara -- of whom; antare -- within the heart; panditeha -- even a

learned scholar; tara -- his; cesta -- activities; bujhite -- to

understand; na pare -- cannot.

TRANSLATION

When transcendental love of Krsna awakens in one's heart, even a

learned scholar cannot comprehend one's activities.

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dhanyasyayam navah prema

yasyonmilati cetasi

antarvanibhir apy asya

mudra susthu sudurgama

SYNONYMS

dhanyasya -- of a most fortunate person; ayam -- this; navah -- new;

prema -- love of Godhead; yasya -- of whom; unmilati -- manifests;

cetasi -- in the heart; antarvanibhih -- by persons well versed

in sastras; api -- even; asya -- of him; mudra -- the symptoms;

susthu -- exceedingly; sudurgama -- difficult to understand.

TRANSLATION

"The activities and symptoms of that exalted personality in whose heart

love of Godhead has awakened cannot be understood even by the most

learned scholar."

PURPORT

This verse is quoted from Bhakti-rasamrta-sindhu (1.4.17).

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alaukika prabhura 'cesta', 'pralapa' suniya

tarka na kariha, suna visvasa kariya

SYNONYMS

alaukika -- uncommon; prabhura -- of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; cesta --

the activities; pralapa -- talking in madness; suniya -- hearing; tarka -

- unnecessary arguments; na kariha -- do not make; suna -- simply hear;

visvasa kariya -- having full faith.

TRANSLATION

The activities of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu are undoubtedly uncommon,

especially His talking like a madman. Therefore, one who hears of these

pastimes should not put forward mundane arguments. He should simply hear

the pastimes with full faith.

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ihara satyatve pramana sri-bhagavate

sri-radhara prema-pralapa 'bhramara-gita'te

SYNONYMS

ihara -- of these talks; satyatve -- in the truthfulness; pramana -- the

evidence; sri-bhagavate -- in Srimad-Bhagavatam; sri-radhara -- of

Srimati Radharani; prema-pralapa -- talking crazily in ecstatic love;

bhramara-gitate -- in the section known as Bhramara-gita.

TRANSLATION

The evidence of the truth of these talks is found in Srimad-Bhagavatam.

There, in the section of the Tenth Canto known as the Bhramara-gita, "

the Song to the Bumblebee," Srimati Radharani speaks insanely in

ecstatic love for Krsna.

PURPORT

When Uddhava arrived from Mathura carrying a message for the gopis, the

gopis began talking about Krsna and crying. Then one important gopi

saw a bumblebee and began speaking to it like someone mad, thinking that

the bee was a messenger of Uddhava's or was someone very dear to him and

Krsna. The verses are as follows (Bhag. 10.47.12-21):

madhupa kitava-bandho ma sprsanghrim sapatnyah

kuca-vilulita-mala-kunkuma-smasrubhir nah

vahatu madhu-patis tan-manininam prasadam

yadu-sadasi vidambyam yasya dutas tvam idrk

"My dear bumblebee, you are a very cunning friend of Uddhava and Krsna.

You are very expert in touching people's feet, but I am not going to be

misled by this. You appear to have sat on the breasts of one of Krsna's

friends, for I see that you have kunkuma dust on your mustache. Krsna is

now engaged in flattering all His young girl friends in Mathura.

Therefore, now that He can be called a friend of the residents of

Mathura, He does not need the help of the residents of Vrndavana. He has

no reason to satisfy us gopis. Since you are the messenger of such a

person as He, what is the use of your presence here? Certainly Krsna

would be ashamed of your presence in this assembly."

How has Krsna offended the gopis so that they want to reject Him from

their minds? The answer is given as follows:

sakrd adhara-sudham svam mohinim payayitva

sumanasa iva sadyas tatyaje 'sman bhavadrk

paricarati katham tat-pada-padmam tu padma

hy api bata hrta-ceta uttama-sloka-jalpaih

"Krsna no longer gives us the enchanting nectar of His lips; instead, He

now gives that nectar to the women of Mathura. Krsna directly attracts

our minds, yet He resembles a bumblebee like you because He gives up the

association of a beautiful flower and goes to a flower that is inferior.

That is the way Krsna has treated us. I do not know why the goddess of

fortune continues to serve His lotus feet instead of leaving them aside.

Apparently she believes in Krsna's false words. We gopis, however, are

not unintelligent like Laksmi."

After hearing the bumblebee's sweet songs and recognizing that the bee

was singing about Krsna for Her satisfaction, the gopi replied,

kim iha bahu sadanghre gayasi tvam yadunam

adhipatim agrhanam agrato nah puranam

vijaya-sakha-sakhinam giyatam tat-prasangah

ksapita-kucarujas te kalpayantistam istah

"Dear bumblebee, Lord Krsna has no residence here, but we know Him as

Yadupati [the King of the Yadu dynasty]. We know Him very well, and

therefore we are not interested in hearing any more songs about Him. It

would be better for you to go sing to those who are now very dear to

Krsna. Those women of Mathura have now achieved the opportunity to be

embraced by Him. They are His beloveds now, and therefore He has

relieved the burning in their breasts. If you go there and sing your

songs to those fortunate women, they will be very pleased, and they will

honor you."

divi bhuvi ca rasayam kah striyas tad durapah

kapata-rucira-hasa-bhruvi-jrmbhasya yah syuh

carana-raja upaste yasya bhutir vayam ka

api ca krpana-pakse hy uttamasloka-sabdah

"O collector of honey, Krsna must be very sorry not to see us gopis.

Surely He is afflicted by memories of our pastimes. Therefore He has

sent you as a messenger to satisfy us. Do not speak to us! All the women

in the three worlds where death is inevitable -- the heavenly, middle

and lower planets -- are very easily available to Krsna because His

curved eyebrows are so attractive. Moreover, He is always served very

faithfully by the goddess of fortune. In comparison with her, we are

most insignificant. Indeed, we are nothing. Yet although He is very

cunning, Krsna is also very charitable. You may inform Him that He is

praised for His kindness to unfortunate persons and that He is therefore

known as Uttamasloka, one who is praised by chosen words and verses."

visrja sirasi padam vedmy aham catukarair

anunaya-vidusas te 'bhyetya dautyair mukundat

svakrta iha visrstapatya-paty-anya-loka

vyasrjad akrta-cetah kim nu sandheyam asmin

"You are buzzing at My feet just to be forgiven for your past offenses.

Kindly go away from My feet! I know that Mukunda has taught you to speak

very sweet, flattering words like this and to act as His messenger.

These are certainly clever tricks, My dear bumblebee, but I can

understand them. This is Krsna's offense. Do not tell Krsna what I have

said, although I know that you are very envious. We gopis have given up

our husbands, our sons, and all the religious principles that promise

better births, and now we have no other business then serving

Krsna. Yet Krsna, by controlling His mind, has easily forgotten us.

Therefore, don't speak of Him any more. Let us forget our relationship."

mrgayur iva kapindram vivyadhe lubdha-dharma

striyam akrta-virupam stri-jitah kamayanam

balim api balim attvavestayad dhvanksavad yas

tad alam asita-sakhyair dustyajas tat-katharthah

"When we remember the past births of Krsna, My dear bumblebee, we are

very afraid of Him. In His incarnation as Lord Ramacandra, He acted

just like a hunter and unjustly killed His friend Vali. Lusty Surpanakha

came to satisfy Ramacandra's desires, but He was so attached to Sitadevi

that He cut off Surpanakha's nose. In His incarnation as Vamanadeva, He

plundered Bali Maharaja and took all his possessions, cheating him on

the pretext of accepting worship from him. Vamanadeva caught Bali

Maharaja exactly as one catches a crow. My dear bumblebee, it is not

very good to make friends with such a person. I know that once one

begins to talk about Krsna, it is very difficult to stop, and I admit

that I have insufficient strength to give up talking about Him."

yad-anucarita-lila-karna-piyusa-viprut

sakrd adana-vidhuta-dvandva-dharma vinastah

sapadi grha-kutumbam dinam utsrjya dina

bahava iha vihanga bhiksu-caryam caranti

"Topics about Krsna are so powerful that they destroy the four religious

principles -- religion, economic development, sense gratification and

liberation. Anyone who drinks even a small drop of krsna-katha through

aural reception is freed from all material attachment and envy. Like a

bird with no means of subsistence, such a person becomes a mendicant and

lives by begging. Ordinary household affairs become miserable for him,

and without attachment he suddenly gives up everything. Although such

renunciation is quite suitable, because I am a woman I am unable to

adopt it."

vayam rtam iva jihma-vyahrtam sraddadhanah

kulikarutam ivajnah krsna-vadhvo hiranyah

dadrsur asakrd etat tan-nakha-sparsativra-

smararuja upamantrin bhanyatam anya-varta

"O My dear messenger, I am just like a foolish bird that hears the sweet

songs of a hunter, believes in them due to simplicity, and is then

pierced in the heart and made to suffer all kinds of miseries. Because

we believed in Krsna's words, we have suffered great pain. Indeed, the

touch of Krsna's nails has injured our faces. He has caused us so much

pain! Therefore, you should give up topics concerning Him and talk about

something else."

After hearing all these statements from Srimati Radhika, the bumblebee

left and then returned. After some thought, the gopi said:

priya-sakha punar agah preyasa presitah kim

varaya kim anurundhe mananiyo 'si me 'nga

nayasi katham ihasman dustyaja-dvandva-parsvam

satatam urasi saumya srir vadhuh sakamaste

"You are Krsna's very dear friend, and by His order you have come here

again. Therefore you are worshipable for Me. O best of messengers, tell

Me now, what is your request? What do you want? Krsna cannot give up

conjugal love, and therefore I understand that you have come here to

take us to Him. But how will you do that? We know many goddesses of

fortune now reside at Krsna's chest, and they constantly serve Krsna

better than we can."

Praising the bumblebee for its sobriety, She began to speak in great

jubilation.

api bata madhu-puryam arya-putro 'dhuna 'ste

smarati sa pitr-gehan saumya bandhums ca gopan

kvacid api sa katha nah kinkarinam grnite

bhujam aguru-sugandham murdhny adhasyat kada nu

"Krsna is now living like a gentleman at the Gurukula in Mathura,

forgetting all the gopis of Vrndavana. But does He not remember the

sweet house of His father, Nanda Maharaja? We are all naturally His

maidservants. Does He not remember us? Does He ever speak about us, or

has He forgotten us completely? Will He ever forgive us and once again

touch us with those hands fragrant with the scent of aguru?"

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mahisira gita yena 'dasame'ra sese

pandite na bujhe tara artha-visese

SYNONYMS

mahisira -- of the queens; gita -- the songs; yena -- just as; dasamera -

- of the Tenth Canto; sese -- at the end; pandite -- very learned

scholars; na -- not; bujhe -- understand; tara -- its; artha-visese --

particular meaning.

TRANSLATION

The songs of the queens at Dvaraka, which are mentioned at the end of

the Tenth Canto of Srimad-Bhagavatam, have a very special meaning. They

are not understood even by the most learned scholars.

PURPORT

These songs of Srimad-Bhagavatam are verses 15-24 of the Ninetieth

Chapter of the Tenth Canto.

kurari vilapasi tvam vita-nidra na sese

svapiti jagati ratryam isvaro gupta-bodhah

vayam iva sakhi kaccid gadha-nirbhinna-ceta

nalina-nayana-hasodara-lileksitena

All the queens incessantly thought of Krsna. After their pastimes in the

water, the queens said, "Our dear friend the osprey, Krsna is now asleep,

but we stay awake at night because of Him. You laugh at us when you see

us awake at night, but why are you not sleeping? You seem absorbed in

thoughts of Krsna. Have you also been pierced by Krsna's smile? His

smile is very sweet. One who is pierced by such an arrow is very

fortunate."

netre nimilayasi naktam adrsta-bandhus

tvam roravisi karunam bata cakravaki

dasyam gata vayam ivacyuta-pada-justam

kim va srajam sprhayase kabarena vodhum

"O cakravaki, you keep your eyes wide open at night because you cannot

see your friend. Indeed, you are suffering very much. Is it because of

compassion that you are crying, or are you trying to capture Krsna by

remembering Him? Having been touched by the lotus feet of Krsna, all the

queens are very happy. Are you crying to wear Krsna's garland on your

head? Please answer these questions clearly, O cakravaki, so that we can

understand."

bho bhoh sada nistanase udanvann

alabdha-nidro 'dhigata-prajagarah

kim va mukundapahrtatma-lanchanah

praptam dasam tvam ca gato duratyayam

"O ocean, you have no opportunity to sleep quietly at night. Instead,

you are always awake and crying. You have received this benediction, and

your heart is broken just like ours. Mukunda's business with us is

simply to smear our marks of kunkuma. O ocean, you suffer as much as we."

tvam yaksmana balavatasi grhita indo

ksinas tamo na nija-didhitibhih ksinosi

kaccin mukunda-gaditani yatha vayam tvam

vismrtya bhoh sthagita-gir upalaksyase nah

"O moon, you appear to be suffering from a severe fever, perhaps

tuberculosis. Indeed, your effulgence does not have the strength to

destroy the darkness. Have you become mad after hearing the songs of

Krsna? Is that why you are silent? Seeing your suffering, we feel that

you are one of us."

kim tvacaritam asmabhir

malayanila te 'priyam

govindapanga-nirbhinne

hrdirayasi nah smaran

"O Malayan breeze, kindly tell us what wrong we have done to you. Why do

you fan the flames of desire in our hearts? We have been pierced by the

arrow of Govinda's glance, for He is perfect in the art of awakening the

influence of Cupid."

megha srimams tvam asi dayito yadavendrasya nunam

srivatsankam vayam iva bhavan dhyayati prema-baddhah

atyutkanthah sabala-hrdayo 'smad-vidho baspa-dharah

smrtva smrtva visrjasi muhur duhkha-das tat-prasangah

"Dear cloud, O friend of Krsna's, are you thinking of the Srivatsa

symbol on Krsna's chest like us queens engaged in loving affairs with

Him? You are absorbed in meditation, remembering the association of

Krsna, and thus you shed tears of misery."

priya-rava-padani bhasase

mrta-samjivikayanaya gira

karavani kim adya te priyam

vada me valgita-kantha kokila

"Dear cuckoo, you possess a very sweet voice, and you are very expert in

imitating others. You could excite even a dead body with your voice.

Therefore, tell the queens that good behavior is their proper duty."

na calasi na vadasy udara-buddhe

ksiti-dhara cintyase mahantam artham

api bata vasudeva-nandananghrim

vayam iva kamayase stanair vidhartum

"O magnanimous mountain, you are very grave and sober, absorbed in

thoughts of doing something very great. Like us, you have vowed to keep

within your heart the lotus feet of Krsna, the son of Vasudeva."

susyad-ghradah karsita bata sindhu-patnyah

sampraty-apasta-kamala-sriya-ista-bhartuh

yadvad vayam madhu-pateh pranayavalokam

aprapya musta-hrdayah puru-karsitah sma

"O rivers, wives of the ocean, we see that the ocean does not give you

happiness. Thus you have almost dried up, and you no longer bear

beautiful lotuses. The lotuses have become skinny, and even in the

sunshine they are devoid of all pleasure. Similarly, the hearts of us

poor queens are all dried up, and our bodies are skinny because we are

now devoid of loving affairs with Madhupati. Are you, like us, dry and

without beauty because you are devoid of Krsna's loving glance?"

hamsa svagatam asyatam piba payo bruhy anga saureh katham

dutam tvam nu vidama kaccid ajitah svasty asta uktam pura

kim va nas cala-sauhrdah smarati tam kasmad bhajamo vayam

ksaudralapaya-kamadam sriyamrte saivaika-nistha striyam

"O swan, you have come here so happily! Let us welcome you. We

understand that you are always Krsna's messenger. Now while you drink

this milk, tell us what His message is. Has Krsna said something about

us to you? May we inquire from you whether Krsna is happy? We want to

know. Does He remember us? We know that the goddess of fortune is

serving Him alone. We are simply maidservants. How can we worship He

who speaks sweet words but never fulfills our desires?"

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mahaprabhu-nityananda, donhara dasera dasa

yare krpa karena, tara haya ithe visvasa

SYNONYMS

mahaprabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; nityananda -- Lord Nityananda;

donhara dasera dasa -- I am a servant of the servant of the servants of

these two personalities; yare krpa karena -- if anyone is favored by

Them; tara haya -- he certainly maintains; ithe visvasa -- faith in all

these affairs.

TRANSLATION

If one becomes a servant of the servants of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu and

Lord Nityananda Prabhu and is favored by Them, he can believe in all

these discourses.

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sraddha kari, suna iha, sunite maha-sukha

khandibe adhyatmikadi kutarkadi-duhkha

SYNONYMS

sraddha kari -- with great faith; suna -- hear; iha -- all these topics;

sunite -- even to hear; maha-sukha -- great pleasure; khandibe -- it

will destroy; adhyatmika-adi -- all distresses due to the body, mind and

so on; kutarka-adi-duhkha -- and the miserable conditions arising from

the use of false arguments.

TRANSLATION

Just try to hear these topics with faith, for there is great pleasure

even in hearing them. That hearing will destroy all miseries pertaining

to the body, mind and other living entities, and the unhappiness of

false arguments as well.

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caitanya-caritamrta -- nitya-nutana

sunite sunite judaya hrdaya-sravana

SYNONYMS

caitanya-carita-amrta -- the book named Caitanya-caritamrta; nitya-

nutana -- always fresh; sunite sunite -- by hearing and hearing; judaya -

- becomes pacified; hrdaya-sravana -- the ear and heart.

TRANSLATION

Caitanya-caritamrta is ever-increasingly fresh. Continuously

hearing it pacifies one's heart and ear.

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TEXT

sri-rupa-raghunatha-pade yara asa

caitanya-caritamrta kahe krsnadasa

SYNONYMS

sri-rupa -- Srila Rupa Gosvami; raghunatha -- Srila Raghunatha dasa

Gosvami; pade -- at the lotus feet; yara -- whose; asa -- expectation;

caitanya-caritamrta -- the book named Caitanya-caritamrta; kahe --

describes; krsnadasa -- Srila Krsnadasa Kaviraja Gosvami.

TRANSLATION

Praying at the lotus feet of Sri Rupa and Sri Raghunatha, always

desiring their mercy, I, Krsnadasa, narrate Sri Caitanya-caritamrta,

following in their footsteps.

Thus end the Bhaktivedanta purports to the Sri Caitanya-caritamrta,

Antya-lila, Nineteenth Chapter, describing the Lord's devotion to His

mother, His mad speeches in separation from Krsna, His rubbing His face

against the walls, and His dancing in the Jagannatha-

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Antya 19: The Inconceivable Behavior of Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu
 
Chapter 19: 
 
The Inconceivable Behavior of Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu
 
 
 
 
The following summary of Chapter Nineteen is given by Srila Bhaktivinoda 
Thakura in his Amrta-pravaha-bhasya. Every year, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu 
asked Jagadananda Pandita to visit His mother in Navadvipa with gifts of 
cloth and prasadam. After one such visit, Jagadananda Pandita returned 
to Puri with a sonnet that Advaita Acarya had written. When Sri Caitanya 
Mahaprabhu read it, His ecstasy was so great that all the devotees 
feared that the Lord would very soon pass away. The Lord's condition was 
so serious that at night He would bruise and bloody His face by rubbing 
it against the walls. To stop this, Svarupa Damodara asked Sankara 
Pandita to stay at night in the same room with the Lord.
 
This chapter further describes how Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu entered 
the Jagannatha-vallabha garden during the full-moon night of Vaisakha (
April-May) and experienced various transcendental ecstasies. Overwhelmed 
with ecstatic love at suddenly seeing Lord Sri Krsna beneath an asoka 
tree, He exhibited various symptoms of spiritual madness.
 
Antya 19.1
 
TEXT 1
 
TEXT
 
vande tam krsna-caitanyam
 matr-bhakta-siromanim
pralapya mukha-sangharsi
 madhudyane lalasa yah
SYNONYMS
 
vande -- I offer my respectful obeisances; tam -- unto Him; krsna-
caitanyam -- Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; matr-bhakta -- of great 
devotees of mothers; siro-manim -- the crown jewel; pralapya -- 
talking like a madman; mukha-sangharsi -- who used to rub His face; 
madhu-udyane -- in the garden known as Jagannatha-vallabha; lalasa -- 
enjoyed; yah -- who.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, the most exalted of all devotees of 
mothers, spoke like a madman and rubbed His face against the walls. 
Overwhelmed by emotions of ecstatic love, He would sometimes enter the 
Jagannatha-vallabha garden to perform His pastimes. I offer my 
respectful obeisances unto Him.
 
Antya 19.2
 
TEXT 2
 
TEXT
 
jaya jaya sri-caitanya jaya nityananda
jayadvaita-candra jaya gaura-bhakta-vrnda
SYNONYMS
 
jaya jaya -- all glories; sri-caitanya -- to Lord Sri Caitanya 
Mahaprabhu; jaya -- all glories; nityananda -- to Nityananda Prabhu; 
jaya -- all glories; advaita-candra -- to Advaita Acarya; jaya -- all 
glories; gaura-bhakta-vrnda -- to the devotees of Lord Gauranga.
 
TRANSLATION
 
All glories to Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu! All glories to Lord Nityananda! 
All glories to Advaita Acarya! And all glories to all the devotees of 
Lord Caitanya Mahaprabhu!
 
Antya 19.3
 
TEXT 3
 
TEXT
 
ei-mate mahaprabhu krsna-premavese
unmada-pralapa kare ratri-divase
SYNONYMS
 
ei-mate -- in this way; mahaprabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; krsna-
prema-avese -- in ecstatic emotional love of Krsna; unmada -- madness; 
pralapa -- and crazy talk; kare -- performs; ratri-divase -- throughout 
the entire day and night.
 
TRANSLATION
 
In the ecstasy of love of Krsna, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu thus behaved 
like a madman, talking insanely all day and night.
 
Antya 19.4
 
TEXT 4
 
TEXT
 
prabhura atyanta priya pandita-jagadananda
yahara caritre prabhu payena ananda
SYNONYMS
 
prabhura -- of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; atyanta -- very; priya -- 
affectionate; pandita-jagadananda -- Jagadananda Pandita; yahara caritre 
-- in whose activities; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; payena -- 
gets; ananda -- great pleasure.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Jagadananda Pandita was a very dear devotee of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu. 
The Lord derived great pleasure from his activities.
 
Antya 19.5
 
TEXT 5
 
TEXT
 
prati-vatsara prabhu tanre pathana nadiyate
viccheda-duhkhita jani ‘janani asvasite
SYNONYMS
 
prati-vatsara -- every year; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; tanre -- 
him; pathana -- sends; nadiyate -- to Navadvipa; viccheda-duhkhita jani' 
-- knowing her affliction due to separation; janani -- His mother; 
asvasite -- to console.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Knowing His mother to be greatly afflicted by separation from Him, the 
Lord would send Jagadananda Pandita to Navadvipa every year to console 
her.
 
Antya 19.6
 
TEXT 6
 
TEXT
 
"nadiya calaha, matare kahiha namaskara
amara name pada-padma dhariha tanhara
SYNONYMS
 
nadiya calaha -- start for Nadia; matare -- unto My mother; kahiha -- 
tell; namaskara -- My obeisances; amara name -- in My name; pada-padma --
 the lotus feet; dhariha -- catch; tanhara -- her.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu told Jagadananda Pandita, "Go to Nadia and offer 
My obeisances to My mother. Touch her lotus feet in My name.
 
Antya 19.7
 
TEXT 7
 
TEXT
 
kahiha tanhare -- ‘tumi karaha smarana
nitya asi ‘ami tomara vandiye carana
SYNONYMS
 
kahiha tanhare -- inform her; tumi karaha smarana -- please remember; 
nitya asi' -- coming daily; ami -- I; tomara -- your; vandiye carana -- 
offer respect to the lotus feet.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"Tell her for Me, ‘Please remember that I come here every day and offer 
My respects to your lotus feet.
 
Antya 19.8
 
TEXT 8
 
TEXT
 
ye-dine tomara iccha karaite bhojana
se-dine asi' avasya kariye bhaksana
SYNONYMS
 
ye-dine -- any day; tomara -- your; iccha -- desire; karaite bhojana -- 
to feed Me; se-dine -- on that day; asi' -- coming; avasya -- certainly; 
kariye bhaksana -- I eat.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"‘Any day you desire to feed Me, I certainly come and accept what you 
offer.
 
Antya 19.9
 
TEXT 9
 
TEXT
 
tomara seva chadi' ami karilun sannyasa
'baula' hana ami kailun dharma-nasa
SYNONYMS
 
tomara seva chadi' -- giving up your service; ami -- I; karilun -- 
accepted; sannyasa -- the renounced order of life; baula hana -- 
becoming mad; ami -- I; kailun -- did; dharma-nasa -- destruction of 
religion.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"‘I have given up service to you and have accepted the vow of sannyasa. 
I have thus become mad and have destroyed the principles of religion.
 
Antya 19.10
 
TEXT 10
 
TEXT
 
ei aparadha tumi na la-iha amara
tomara adhina ami -- putra se tomara
SYNONYMS
 
ei aparadha -- this offense; tumi -- you; na -- do not; la-iha -- take; 
amara -- of Me; tomara -- your; adhina -- dependent; ami -- I; putra -- 
son; se -- that; tomara -- of you.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"‘Mother, please do not take this as an offense, for I, your son, am 
completely dependent upon you.
 
Antya 19.11
 
TEXT 11
 
TEXT
 
nilacale achi ami tomara ajnate
yavat jiba, tavat ami nariba chadite"
SYNONYMS
 
nilacale -- Jagannatha Puri, Nilacala; achi ami -- I am; tomara ajnate --
 on the basis of your order; yavat jiba -- as long as I live; tavat -- 
so long; ami -- I; nariba -- shall not be able; chadite -- to leave.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"‘I am staying here at Nilacala, Jagannatha Puri, according to your 
order. As long as I live, I shall not leave this place.'"
 
Antya 19.12
 
TEXT 12
 
TEXT
 
gopa-lilaya paila yei prasada-vasane
matare pathana taha purira vacane
SYNONYMS
 
gopa-lilaya -- in His pastimes as a cowherd boy; paila -- got; yei -- 
whatever; prasada -- remnant; vasane -- clothing; matare -- unto His 
mother; pathana -- sent; taha -- that; purira vacane -- on the order of 
Paramananda Puri.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Following the order of Paramananda Puri, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu sent 
His mother the prasada clothing left by Lord Jagannatha after His 
pastimes as a cowherd boy.
 
Antya 19.13
 
TEXT 13
 
TEXT
 
jagannathera uttama prasada aniya yatane
matare prthak pathana, ara bhakta-gane
SYNONYMS
 
jagannathera -- of Lord Jagannatha; uttama -- first class; prasada -- 
remnants of food; aniya yatane -- bringing very carefully; matare -- 
unto His mother; prthak -- separately; pathana -- sends; ara bhakta-gane 
-- and to the other devotees.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu very carefully brought first-class prasadam from 
Lord Jagannatha and sent it in separate packages to His mother and the 
devotees at Nadia.
 
Antya 19.14
 
TEXT 14
 
TEXT
 
matr-bhakta-ganera prabhu hana siromani
sannyasa kariya sada sevena janani
SYNONYMS
 
matr-bhakta-ganera -- of the devotees of mothers; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya 
Mahaprabhu; hana -- is; siromani -- the topmost jewel; sannyasa kariya --
 even after taking the sannyasa order; sada -- always; sevena -- renders 
service; janani -- to His mother.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu is the topmost gem of all devotees of mothers. 
He rendered service to His mother even after He had accepted the vow of 
sannyasa.
 
Antya 19.15
 
TEXT 15
 
TEXT
 
jagadananda nadiya giya matare milila
prabhura yata nivedana, sakala kahila
SYNONYMS
 
jagadananda -- Jagadananda; nadiya -- to Navadvipa; giya -- going; 
matare -- mother Saci; milila -- met; prabhura -- of Sri Caitanya 
Mahaprabhu; yata nivedana -- all kinds of salutations; sakala -- 
everything; kahila -- he told.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Jagadananda Pandita thus went to Nadia, and when he met Sacimata, he 
conveyed to her all the Lord's salutations.
 
Antya 19.16
 
TEXT 16
 
TEXT
 
acaryadi bhakta-gane milila prasada diya
mata-thani ajna la-ila maseka rahiya
SYNONYMS
 
acarya-adi -- beginning with Advaita Acarya; bhakta-gane -- all the 
devotees; milila -- he met; prasada diya -- delivering the prasadam of 
Lord Jagannatha; mata-thani -- from mother Saci; ajna la-ila -- took 
permission to leave; maseka rahiya -- remaining for one month.
 
TRANSLATION
 
He then met all the other devotees, headed by Advaita Acarya, and gave 
them the prasadam of Jagannatha. After staying for one month, he took 
permission from mother Saci to leave.
 
Antya 19.17
 
TEXT 17
 
TEXT
 
acaryera thani giya ajna magila
acarya-gosani prabhure sandesa kahila
SYNONYMS
 
acaryera thani -- to Advaita Acarya; giya -- going; ajna magila -- 
begged for permission to leave; acarya-gosani -- Advaita Acarya; 
prabhure -- unto Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; sandesa kahila -- sent a 
message.
 
TRANSLATION
 
When he went to Advaita Acarya and also asked His permission to return, 
Advaita Prabhu gave him a message to deliver to Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu.
 
Antya 19.18
 
TEXT 18
 
TEXT
 
taraja-praheli acarya kahena thare-thore
prabhu matra bujhena, keha bujhite na pare
SYNONYMS
 
taraja-praheli -- a sonnet in equivocal language; acarya -- Advaita 
Acarya; kahena -- spoke; thare-thore -- making some indications; prabhu -
- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; matra -- only; bujhena -- could understand; 
keha bujhite na pare -- others could not understand.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Advaita Acarya had written a sonnet in equivocal language with an import 
that Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu could understand but others could not.
 
Antya 19.19
 
TEXT 19
 
TEXT
 
"prabhure kahiha amara koti namaskara
ei nivedana tanra carane amara
SYNONYMS
 
prabhure kahiha -- just inform Lord Caitanya; amara -- My; koti 
namaskara -- hundreds and thousands of obeisances; ei nivedana -- this 
is the submission; tanra -- His; carane -- unto the lotus feet; amara -- 
My.
 
TRANSLATION
 
In His sonnet, Advaita Prabhu first offered His obeisances hundreds and 
thousands of times unto the lotus feet of Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu. 
He then submitted the following statement at His lotus feet.
 
Antya 19.20
 
TEXT 20
 
TEXT
 
baulake kahiha, -- loka ha-ila baula
baulake kahiha, -- hate na vikaya caula
SYNONYMS
 
baulake kahiha -- please inform Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, who is playing 
the part of a madman in ecstatic love; loka -- the people in general; ha-
ila -- have become; baula -- also mad in ecstatic love; baulake kahiha --
 again inform Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, the baula; hate -- in the 
market; na -- not; vikaya -- sells; caula -- rice.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"Please inform Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, who is acting like a madman, 
that everyone here has become mad like Him. Inform Him also that in the 
marketplace rice is no longer in demand.
 
Antya 19.21
 
TEXT 21
 
TEXT
 
baulake kahiha, -- kaye nahika aula
baulake kahiha, -- iha kahiyache baula"
SYNONYMS
 
baulake kahiha -- again inform the baula, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; kaye -
- in business; nahika -- there is not; aula -- persons who have become 
mad in ecstatic love; baulake kahiha -- again inform the baula, Sri 
Caitanya Mahaprabhu; iha -- this; kahiyache -- has spoken; baula -- 
another madman, Sri Advaita Prabhu Himself.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"Further tell Him that those now mad in ecstatic love are no longer 
interested in the material world. Also tell Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu that 
one who has also become a madman in ecstatic love [Advaita 
Prabhu] has spoken these words."
 
Antya 19.22
 
TEXT 22
 
TEXT
 
eta suni' jagadananda hasite lagila
nilacale asi' tabe prabhure kahila
SYNONYMS
 
eta suni' -- hearing this; jagadananda -- Jagadananda Pandita; hasite 
lagila -- began to laugh; nilacale -- to Jagannatha Puri; asi' -- 
returning; tabe -- then; prabhure kahila -- he told all this to Sri 
Caitanya Mahaprabhu.
 
TRANSLATION
 
When he heard Advaita Acarya's statement, Jagadananda Pandita began to 
laugh, and when he returned to Jagannatha Puri, Nilacala, he informed 
Caitanya Mahaprabhu of everything.
 
Antya 19.23
 
TEXT 23
 
TEXT
 
taraja suni' mahaprabhu isat hasila
'tanra yei ajna' -- bali' mauna dharila
SYNONYMS
 
taraja suni' -- hearing the sonnet; mahaprabhu -- Sri Caitanya 
Mahaprabhu; isat hasila -- quietly smiled; tanra yei ajna -- that is His 
order; bali' -- saying; mauna dharila -- became silent.
 
TRANSLATION
 
After hearing the equivocal sonnet by Advaita Acarya, Sri Caitanya 
Mahaprabhu quietly smiled. "That is His order," He said. Then He fell 
silent.
 
Antya 19.24
 
TEXT 24
 
TEXT
 
janiyao svarupa gosani prabhure puchila
'ei tarajara artha bujhite narila'
SYNONYMS
 
janiyao -- although knowing; svarupa gosani -- Svarupa Damodara Gosvami; 
prabhure puchila -- inquired from Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; ei tarajara 
artha -- the meaning of this sonnet; bujhite -- to understand; narila -- 
I was not able.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Although he knew the secret, Svarupa Damodara Gosvami inquired from the 
Lord, "What is the meaning of this sonnet? I could not understand it."
 
Antya 19.25
 
TEXT 25
 
TEXT
 
prabhu kahena, -- ‘acarya haya pujaka prabala
agama-sastrera vidhi-vidhane kusala
SYNONYMS
 
prabhu kahena -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu said; acarya haya pujaka 
prabala -- Advaita Acarya is a great worshiper; agama-sastrera -- of the 
Vedic literature; vidhi-vidhane kusala -- very expert in the regulative 
principles.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu replied, "Advaita Acarya is a great worshiper of 
the Lord and is very expert in the regulative principles enjoined in the 
Vedic literatures.
 
Antya 19.26
 
TEXT 26
 
TEXT
 
upasana lagi' devera karena avahana
puja lagi' kata kala karena nirodhana
SYNONYMS
 
upasana lagi' -- for worshiping the Deity; devera -- of the Lord; karena 
avahana -- invites to come; puja lagi' -- to perform the worship; kata 
kala -- for some time; karena nirodhana -- He keeps the Deity.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"Advaita Acarya invites the Lord to come and be worshiped, and to 
perform the worship He keeps the Deity for some time.
 
Antya 19.27
 
TEXT 27
 
TEXT
 
puja-nirvahana haile pache karena visarjana
tarajara na jani artha, kiba tanra mana
SYNONYMS
 
puja-nirvahana -- finishing of the worship; haile -- when there is; 
pache -- at last; karena visarjana -- sends back the Deity; tarajara -- 
of the sonnet; na jani -- I do not know; artha -- the meaning; kiba 
tanra mana -- what is in His mind.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"After the worship is completed, He sends the Deity somewhere else. I do 
not know the meaning of this sonnet, nor do I know what is in Advaita 
Prabhu's mind.
 
Antya 19.28
 
TEXT 28
 
TEXT
 
maha-yogesvara acarya -- tarajate samartha
amiha bujhite nari tarajara artha'
SYNONYMS
 
maha-yogesvara -- the greatest mystic; acarya -- Advaita Acarya; 
tarajate samartha -- very expert in writing sonnets; amiha -- and yet I; 
bujhite -- to understand; nari -- am not able; tarajara -- of the sonnet;
 artha -- the meaning.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"Advaita Acarya is a great mystic. No one can understand Him. He is 
expert in writing sonnets that even I Myself cannot understand."
 
Antya 19.29
 
TEXT 29
 
TEXT
 
suniya vismita ha-ila saba bhakta-gana
svarupa-gosani kichu ha-ila vimana
SYNONYMS
 
suniya -- hearing; vismita -- astonished; ha-ila -- became; saba -- all; 
bhakta-gana -- the devotees; svarupa-gosani -- Svarupa Damodara Gosvami; 
kichu -- somewhat; ha-ila -- became; vimana -- morose.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Hearing this, all the devotees were astonished, especially Svarupa 
Damodara, who became somewhat morose.
 
Antya 19.30
 
TEXT 30
 
TEXT
 
sei dina haite prabhura ara dasa ha-ila
krsnera viccheda-dasa dviguna badila
SYNONYMS
 
sei dine haite -- from that day on; prabhura -- of Sri Caitanya 
Mahaprabhu; ara -- another; dasa -- condition; ha-ila -- there was; 
krsnera -- from Lord Krsna; viccheda-dasa -- the condition of separation;
 dvi-guna -- twice; badila -- increased.
 
TRANSLATION
 
From that day on, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu's emotional state changed 
markedly; His feelings of separation from Krsna doubled in intensity.
 
Antya 19.31
 
TEXT 31
 
TEXT
 
unmada-pralapa-cesta kare ratri-dine
radha-bhavavese viraha bade anuksane
SYNONYMS
 
unmada -- madness; pralapa -- craziness; cesta -- activities; kare ratri-
dine -- He performed day and night; radha-bhava-avese -- in the ecstatic 
emotion of Srimati Radharani; viraha -- separation; bade -- increases; 
anuksane -- every moment.
 
TRANSLATION
 
As His feelings of separation in the ecstasy of Srimati Radharani 
increased at every moment, the Lord's activities, both day and night, 
were now wild, insane performances.
 
Antya 19.32
 
TEXT 32
 
TEXT
 
acambite sphure krsnera mathura-gamana
udghurna-dasa haila unmada-laksana
SYNONYMS
 
acambite -- suddenly; sphure -- there awoke; krsnera -- of Lord Krsna; 
mathura-gamana -- the departure for Mathura; udghurna-dasa -- the 
ecstatic condition known as udghurna; haila -- there was; unmada-laksana 
-- the symptom of madness.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Suddenly there awoke within Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu the scene of Lord 
Krsna's departure to Mathura, and He began exhibiting the symptom of 
ecstatic madness known as udghurna.
 
Antya 19.33
 
TEXT 33
 
TEXT
 
ramanandera gala dhari' karena pralapana
svarupe puchena mani' nija-sakhi-gana
SYNONYMS
 
ramanandera -- of Ramananda Raya; gala dhari' -- holding the neck; 
karena pralapana -- begins talking like a crazy man; svarupe puchena -- 
inquired from Svarupa Damodara; mani' -- accepting; nija-sakhi-gana -- 
as a gopi friend.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu spoke like a madman, holding Ramananda Raya by 
the neck, and He questioned Svarupa Damodara, thinking him to be His 
gopi friend.
 
Antya 19.34
 
TEXT 34
 
TEXT
 
purve yena visakhare radhika puchila
sei sloka padi' pralapa karite lagila
SYNONYMS
 
purve -- formerly; yena -- as; visakhare -- unto Visakha; radhika -- 
Srimati Radharani; puchila -- inquired; sei sloka -- that verse; padi' --
 reciting; pralapa -- talking like a crazy man; karite lagila -- began 
to do.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Just as Srimati Radharani inquired from Her personal friend Visakha, Sri 
Caitanya Mahaprabhu, reciting that very verse, began speaking like a 
madman.
 
Antya 19.35
 
TEXT 35
 
TEXT
 
kva nanda-kula-candramah kva sikhi-candrakalankrtih
 kva mandra-murali-ravah kva nu surendra-nila-dyutih
kva rasa-rasa-tandavi kva sakhi jiva-raksausadhir
 nidhir mama suhrt-tamah kva bata hanta ha dhig vidhim
SYNONYMS
 
kva -- where; nanda-kula-candramah -- Krsna, who has arisen like the 
moon in the ocean of the dynasty of Nanda Maharaja; kva -- where; sikhi-
candraka-alankrtih -- Krsna, whose head is decorated with a peacock 
feather; kva -- where; mandra-murali-ravah -- Krsna, whose flute 
produces a deep sound; kva -- where; nu -- certainly; surendra-nila-
dyutih -- Krsna, whose bodily luster is like the jewel called indranila; 
kva -- where; rasa-rasa-tandavi -- Krsna, who is expert in dancing in 
the rasa dance; kva -- where; sakhi -- O My dear friend; jiva-raksa-
ausadhih -- Krsna, who is the medicine that can save one's life; nidhih -
- treasure; mama -- My; suhrt-tamah -- best of friends; kva -- where; 
bata -- I am so sorry; hanta -- alas; ha -- oh; dhik vidhim -- 
condemnation to Vidhi, the maker of my destiny.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"‘My dear friend, where is Krsna, who is like the moon rising from the 
ocean of Maharaja Nanda's dynasty? Where is Krsna, His head decorated 
with a peacock feather? Where is He? Where is Krsna, whose flute 
produces such a deep sound? Oh, where is Krsna, whose bodily luster is 
like the luster of the blue indranila jewel? Where is Krsna, who is so 
expert in rasa dancing? Oh, where is He, who can save My life? Kindly 
tell Me where to find Krsna, the treasure of My life and best of My 
friends. Feeling separation from Him, I hereby condemn Providence, the 
shaper of My destiny.'
 
PURPORT
 
This verse is found in the Lalita-madhava (3.25) of Srila Rupa Gosvami.
 
Antya 19.36
 
TEXT 36
 
TEXT
 
"vrajendra-kula -- dugdha-sindhu,     krsna tahe purna indu,
janmi' kaila jagat ujora
kanty-amrta yeba piye,     nirantara piya jiye,
vraja-janera nayana-cakora
SYNONYMS
 
vrajendra-kula -- the dynasty of Maharaja Nanda in Vrajabhumi; dugdha-
sindhu -- like the ocean of milk; krsna -- Lord Krsna; tahe -- in that; 
purna -- full; indu -- moon; janmi' -- arising; kaila -- has made; jagat 
-- the whole world; ujora -- illuminated; kanti-amrta -- the nectar of 
His bodily luster; yeba piye -- anyone who drinks; nirantara -- always; 
piya -- drinking; jiye -- sustains life; vraja-janera -- of the 
inhabitants of Vrndavana; nayana-cakora -- eyes that are like cakora 
birds.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"The family of Maharaja Nanda is just like an ocean of milk, wherein 
Lord Krsna has arisen like the full moon to illuminate the entire 
universe. The eyes of the residents of Vraja are like cakora birds that 
continuously drink the nectar of His bodily luster and thus live 
peacefully.
 
Antya 19.37
 
TEXT 37
 
TEXT
 
sakhi he, kotha krsna, karaha darasana
ksaneke yahara mukha,     na dekhile phate buka,
sighra dekhaha, na rahe jivana
SYNONYMS
 
sakhi he -- O My dear friend; kotha krsna -- where is Lord Krsna; karaha 
darasana -- please let Me see Him; ksaneke -- within a moment; yahara -- 
whose; mukha -- face; na dekhile -- if not seeing; phate buka -- My 
heart is breaking; sighra -- quickly; dekhaha -- show; na rahe jivana -- 
My life is expiring.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"My dear friend, where is Krsna? Kindly let Me see Him. My heart breaks 
at not seeing His face even for a moment. Kindly show Him to Me 
immediately; otherwise I cannot live.
 
Antya 19.38
 
TEXT 38
 
TEXT
 
ei vrajera ramani,     kamarka-tapta-kumudini,
nija-karamrta diya dana
praphullita kare yei,     kahan mora candra sei,
dekhaha, sakhi, rakha mora prana
SYNONYMS
 
ei -- these; vrajera ramani -- women of Vrndavana; kama-arka-tapta-
kumudini -- exactly like lilies becoming very hot in the sun of lusty 
desire; nija -- own; kara-amrta -- nectar of the hands; diya -- giving; 
dana -- charity; praphullita -- jubilant; kare -- makes; yei -- one who; 
kahan -- where; mora -- My; candra -- moon; sei -- that; dekhaha -- 
please show; sakhi -- O My dear friend; rakha -- please save; mora prana 
-- My life.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"The women of Vrndavana are just like lilies growing hot in the sun of 
lusty desires. But moonlike Krsna makes them all jubilant by bestowing 
upon them the nectar of His hands. O My dear friend, where is My moon 
now? Save My life by showing Him to Me!
 
Antya 19.39
 
TEXT 39
 
TEXT
 
kahan se cudara thama,     sikhi-pinchera udana,
nava-meghe yena indra-dhanu
pitambara -- tadid-dyuti,     mukta-mala -- baka-panti,
navambuda jini' syama-tanu
SYNONYMS
 
kahan -- where; se -- that; cudara thama -- beauty of the helmet; sikhi-
pinchera udana -- upon which there is a peacock feather; nava-meghe -- 
in a new cloud; yena -- just like; indra-dhanu -- the rainbow; pita-
ambara -- yellow garments; tadit-dyuti -- like the illumination of 
lightning; mukta-mala -- pearl necklace; baka-panti -- like rows of 
ducks; nava-ambuda -- a new rain cloud; jini' -- conquering; syama-tanu -
- the blackish body.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"My dear friend, where is that beautiful helmet with a peacock feather 
upon it like a rainbow upon a new cloud? Where are those yellow garments,
 shining like lightning? And where is that necklace of pearls that 
resemble flocks of ducks flying in the sky? The blackish body of Krsna 
triumphs over the new blackish rain cloud.
 
Antya 19.40
 
TEXT 40
 
TEXT
 
eka-bara yara nayane lage,     sada tara hrdaye jage,
krsna-tanu -- yena amra-atha
nari-mane paise haya,     yatne nahi bahiraya,
tanu nahe, -- seya-kulera kanta
SYNONYMS
 
eka-bara -- once; yara -- whose; nayane -- eyes; lage -- capture; sada --
 always; tara -- his; hrdaye -- in the heart; jage -- remains prominent; 
krsna-tanu -- the body of Krsna; yena -- like; amra-atha -- the sap of 
the mango tree; nari-mane -- in the minds of women; paise -- enters; 
haya -- alas; yatne -- even with great endeavor; nahi -- does not; 
bahiraya -- come out; tanu nahe -- is not an ordinary body; seya-kulera 
kanta -- it is like the thorn of the seya berry tree.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"If a person's eyes even once capture that beautiful body of Krsna, it 
remains always prominent within his heart. Krsna's body resembles the 
sap of the mango tree, for when it enters the minds of women, it will 
not come out, despite great endeavor. Thus Krsna's extraordinary body is 
like a thorn of the seya berry tree.
 
Antya 19.41
 
TEXT 41
 
TEXT
 
jiniya tamala-dyuti,     indranila-sama kanti,
se kantite jagat mataya
srngara-rasa-sara chani',     tate candra-jyotsna sani',
jani vidhi niramila taya
SYNONYMS
 
jiniya -- being victorious over; tamala-dyuti -- the luster of the 
tamala tree; indra-nila -- the gem known as indranila; sama kanti -- the 
luster like; se kantite -- by that luster; jagat mataya -- the whole 
world becomes maddened; srngara-rasa -- of the mellow of conjugal love; 
sara -- essence; chani' -- filtering; tate -- in that; candra-jyotsna -- 
the illumination of the full moon; sani' -- mixing; jani -- I know; 
vidhi -- Providence; niramila -- made very clear; taya -- that.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"Krsna's bodily luster shines like the indranila gem and surpasses the 
luster of the tamala tree. The luster of His body drives the entire 
world mad because Providence has made it transparent by refining the 
essence of the mellow of conjugal love and mixing it with moonshine.
 
Antya 19.42
 
TEXT 42
 
TEXT
 
kahan se murali-dhvani,     navabhra-garjita jini',
jagat akarse sravane yahara
uthi' dhaya vraja-jana,     trsita cataka-gana,
asi' piye kanty-amrta-dhara
SYNONYMS
 
kahan -- where; se -- that; murali-dhvani -- the vibration of the flute; 
nava-abhra-garjita jini' -- conquering the vibrations of new clouds; 
jagat -- the whole world; akarse -- attracts; sravane -- the hearing; 
yahara -- whose; uthi' -- standing up; dhaya -- run; vraja-jana -- the 
inhabitants of Vrajabhumi; trsita cataka-gana -- like lusty cataka birds;
 asi' -- coming; piye -- drink; kanti-amrta-dhara -- the showers of the 
nectar of Krsna's bodily luster.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"The deep vibration of Krsna's flute surpasses the thundering of new 
clouds and attracts the aural reception of the entire world. Thus the 
inhabitants of Vrndavana rise and pursue that sound, drinking the 
showering nectar of Krsna's bodily luster like thirsty cataka birds.
 
Antya 19.43
 
TEXT 43
 
TEXT
 
mora sei kala-nidhi,     prana-raksa-mahausadhi,
sakhi, mora tenho suhrttama
deha jiye tanha vine,     dhik ei jivane,
vidhi kare eta vidambana!"
SYNONYMS
 
mora -- of Me; sei -- that; kala-nidhi -- reservoir of art and culture; 
prana-raksa -- maha-ausaudhi -- the panacea for saving My life; sakhi -- 
O My dear friend; mora -- My; tenho -- He; suhrt-tama -- the best of 
friends; deha jiye -- My body lives; tanha vine -- without Him; dhik -- 
condemnation; ei jivane -- to this life; vidhi -- Providence; kare -- 
does; eta vidambana -- so much cheating.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"Krsna is the reservoir of art and culture, and He is the panacea that 
saves My life. O My dear friend, since I live without Him, who is the 
best among My friends, I condemn the duration of My life. I think that 
Providence has cheated Me in many ways.
 
Antya 19.44
 
TEXT 44
 
TEXT
 
'ye-jana jite nahi caya,     tare kene jiyaya',
vidhi-prati uthe krodha-soka
vidhire kare bhartsana,     krsne dena olahana,
padi' bhagavatera eka sloka
SYNONYMS
 
ye-jana -- that person who; jite -- to live; nahi caya -- does not want; 
tare -- him; kene -- why; jiyaya -- he makes life continue; vidhi-prati -
- towards Providence; uthe -- awakens; krodha-soka -- anger and 
lamentation; vidhire -- unto Providence; kare -- does; bhartsana -- 
chastisement; krsne -- unto Lord Krsna; dena -- gives; olahana -- 
accusation; padi' -- reciting; bhagavatera -- of Srimad-Bhagavatam; eka 
sloka -- a verse.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"Why does Providence continue the life of one who does not wish to live?"
 This thought aroused anger and lamentation in Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, 
who then recited a verse from Srimad-Bhagavatam that chastises 
Providence and makes an accusation against Krsna.
 
Antya 19.45
 
TEXT 45
 
TEXT
 
aho vidhatas tava na kvacid daya
 samyojya maitrya pranayena dehinah
tams cakrtarthan viyunanksy aparthakam
 vicestitam te ‘rbhaka-cestitam yatha
SYNONYMS
 
aho -- alas; vidhatah -- O Providence; tava -- your; na -- not; kvacit --
 at any time; daya -- mercy; samyojya -- making connections; maitrya -- 
by friendship; pranayena -- and by affection; dehinah -- of the embodied 
souls; tan -- them; ca -- and; akrta-arthan -- without achievement; 
viyunanksi -- you cause to happen; aparthakam -- separation; vicestitam -
- activities; te -- your; arbhaka -- of a boy; cestitam -- the childish 
play; yatha -- like.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"‘O Providence, you have no mercy! You bring embodied souls together 
through friendship and affection, but before their desires are fulfilled,
 you separate them. Your activities are like the foolish pranks of 
children.'
 
PURPORT
 
This verse, quoted from Srimad-Bhagavatam (10.39.19), was chanted by the 
damsels of Vraja when Krsna left Vrndavana for Mathura with Akrura and 
Balarama. The gopis lamented that Providence had made it possible for 
them to meet Krsna and Balarama in affection and love and had then 
separated them.
 
Antya 19.46
 
TEXT 46
 
TEXT
 
"na janis prema-marma,     vyartha karis parisrama,
tora cesta -- balaka-samana
tora yadi lag paiye,     tabe tore siksa diye,
emana yena na karis vidhana
SYNONYMS
 
na janis -- you do not know; prema-marma -- the purport of loving 
affairs; vyartha karis -- you baffle; parisrama -- all labor; tora cesta 
-- your activities; balaka-samana -- like the childish activities of a 
boy; tora yadi lag paiye -- if I get the opportunity to meet you; tabe --
 then; tore -- unto you; siksa diye -- I shall give some lessons; emana -
- like this; yena -- so that; na karis vidhana -- will not make 
arrangements.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"Providence, you do not know the purport of loving affairs, and 
therefore you baffle all Our endeavors. This is very childish of you. If 
We could catch you, We would give you such a lesson that you would never 
again make such arrangements.
 
Antya 19.47
 
TEXT 47
 
TEXT
 
are vidhi, tui bada-i nithura
anyo'nya durlabha jana,     preme karana sammilana,
'akrtarthan' kene karis dura?
SYNONYMS
 
are -- oh; vidhi -- Providence; tui -- you; bada-i -- very; nithura -- 
cruel; anyah anya -- for one another; durlabha jana -- persons rarely 
obtained; preme -- in love; karana sammilana -- causing to meet together;
 akrta-arthan -- unsuccessful; kene -- why; karis -- you do; dura -- far 
apart.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"Oh, cruel Providence! You are very unkind, for you bring together in 
love people who are rarely in touch with each other. Then, after you 
have made Them meet but before They are fulfilled, you again spread Them 
far apart.
 
Antya 19.48
 
TEXT 48
 
TEXT
 
are vidhi akaruna,     dekhana krsnanana,
netra-mana lobhaila mora
ksaneke karite pana,     kadi' nila anya sthana,
papa kaili ‘datta-apahara'
SYNONYMS
 
are -- oh; vidhi -- Providence; akaruna -- most unkind; dekhana -- 
showing; krsna-anana -- the beautiful face of Krsna; netra-mana -- mind 
and eyes; lobhaila -- have made greedy; mora -- My; ksaneke karite pana -
- drinking only for a moment; kadi' nila -- took it away; anya sthana -- 
to another place; papa kaili -- have performed a most sinful act; datta-
apahara -- taking back things given in charity.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"O Providence, you are so unkind! You reveal the beautiful face of Krsna 
and make the mind and eyes greedy, but after they have drunk that nectar 
for only a moment, you whisk Krsna away to another place. This is a 
great sin because you thus take away what you have given as charity.
 
Antya 19.49
 
TEXT 49
 
TEXT
 
'akrura kare tomara dosa,     amaya kene kara rosa',
iha yadi kaha ‘duracara'
tui akrura-murti dhari',     krsna nili curi kari',
anyera nahe aiche vyavahara
SYNONYMS
 
akrura -- Akrura; kare -- does; tomara dosa -- fault to You; amaya -- 
unto me; kene -- why; kara -- You do; rosa -- anger; iha -- this; yadi --
 if; kaha -- you say; duracara -- O misbehaved (Providence); tui -- you; 
akrura-murti dhari' -- taking the form of Akrura; krsna -- Lord Krsna; 
nili -- you have taken; curi kari' -- stealing; anyera -- of others; 
nahe -- there is not; aiche -- this type of; vyavahara -- behavior.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"O misbehaved Providence! If you reply to Us, ‘Akrura is actually at 
fault; why are You angry with me?' then I say to you, ‘Providence, you 
have taken the form of Akrura and have stolen Krsna away. No one else 
would behave like this.'
 
Antya 19.50
 
TEXT 50
 
TEXT
 
apanara karma-dosa,     tore kiba kari rosa,
toya-moya sambandha vidura
ye amara prana-natha,     ekatra rahi yanra satha,
sei krsna ha-ila nithura!
SYNONYMS
 
apanara karma-dosa -- it is the result of My own fate; tore -- unto you; 
kiba -- what; kari rosa -- I give accusations; toya-moya -- between you 
and Me; sambandha -- the relationship; vidura -- very far; ye -- the one 
who is; amara -- My; prana-natha -- life and soul; ekatra -- together; 
rahi -- We remain; yanra satha -- with whom; sei krsna -- that Krsna; ha-
ila nithura -- has become so cruel.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"But this is the fault of My own destiny. Why should I needlessly accuse 
you? There is no intimate relationship between you and Me. Krsna, 
however, is My life and soul. It is We who live together, and it is He 
who has become so cruel.
 
Antya 19.51
 
TEXT 51
 
TEXT
 
saba tyaji' bhaji yanre,     sei apana-hate mare,
nari-vadhe krsnera nahi bhaya
tanra lagi' ami mari,     ulati' na cahe hari,
ksana-matre bhangila pranaya
SYNONYMS
 
saba tyaji' -- leaving everything aside; bhaji yanre -- the person whom 
I worship; sei -- that person; apana-hate -- by His own hand; mare -- 
kills; nari-vadhe -- in killing one woman; krsnera -- of Krsna; nahi 
bhaya -- there is no fear; tanra lagi' -- for Him; ami mari -- I die; 
ulati' -- turning back; na cahe hari -- Krsna does not look; ksana-matre 
-- within a moment; bhangila -- has broken; pranaya -- all loving 
affairs.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"He for whom I have left everything is personally killing Me with His 
own hands. Krsna has no fear of killing women. Indeed, I am dying for 
Him, but He doesn't even turn back to look at Me. Within a moment, He 
has broken off Our loving affairs.
 
Antya 19.52
 
TEXT 52
 
TEXT
 
krsne kene kari rosa,     apana durdaiva-dosa,
pakila mora ei papa-phala
ye krsna -- mora premadhina,     tare kaila udasina,
ei mora abhagya prabala"
SYNONYMS
 
krsne -- unto Krsna; kene -- why; kari rosa -- I am angry; apana -- of 
My own; durdaiva -- of misfortune; dosa -- fault; pakila -- has ripened; 
mora -- My; ei -- this; papa-phala -- sinful reaction; ye -- that; krsna 
-- Krsna; mora -- My; prema-adhina -- dependent on love; tare -- Him; 
kaila -- has made; udasina -- indifferent; ei mora -- this is My; 
abhagya -- misfortune; prabala -- very strong.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"Yet why should I be angry with Krsna? It is the fault of My own 
misfortune. The fruit of My sinful activities has ripened, and therefore 
Krsna, who has always been dependent on My love, is now indifferent. 
This means that My misfortune is very strong."
 
Antya 19.53
 
TEXT 53
 
TEXT
 
ei-mata gaura-raya,     visade kare haya haya,
'ha ha krsna, tumi gela kati?'
gopi-bhava hrdaye,     tara vakye vilapaye,
'govinda damodara madhaveti'
SYNONYMS
 
ei-mata -- in this way; gaura-raya -- Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; 
visade -- in lamentation due to separation; kare haya haya -- always 
says "alas, alas"; ha ha krsna -- oh, oh, Krsna; tumi gela kati -- where 
have You gone; gopi-bhava hrdaye -- with the ecstatic love of the gopis 
in His heart; tara vakye -- in their words; vilapaye -- He laments; 
govinda damodara madhava -- O Govinda, O Damodara, O Madhava; iti -- 
thus.
 
TRANSLATION
 
In this way, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu lamented in the mood of separation, 
"Alas, alas! O Krsna, where have You gone?" Feeling in His heart the 
ecstatic emotions of the gopis, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu agonized in 
their words, saying, "O Govinda! O Damodara! O Madhava!"
 
Antya 19.54
 
TEXT 54
 
TEXT
 
tabe svarupa-rama-raya,     kari' nana upaya,
mahaprabhura kare asvasana
gayena sangama-gita,     prabhura phiraila cita,
prabhura kichu sthira haila mana
SYNONYMS
 
tabe -- thereafter; svarupa-rama-raya -- Svarupa Damodara Gosvami and 
Ramananda Raya; kari' nana upaya -- devising many means; mahaprabhura -- 
Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; kare asvasana -- pacify; gayena -- they sang; 
sangama-gita -- meeting songs; prabhura -- of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; 
phiraila cita -- transformed the heart; prabhura -- of Sri Caitanya 
Mahaprabhu; kichu -- somewhat; sthira -- peaceful; haila -- became; mana 
-- the mind.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Svarupa Damodara and Ramananda Raya then devised various means to pacify 
the Lord. They sang songs of meeting that transformed His heart and made 
His mind peaceful.
 
Antya 19.55
 
TEXT 55
 
TEXT
 
ei-mata vilapite ardha-ratri gela
gambhirate svarupa-gosani prabhure soyaila
SYNONYMS
 
ei-mata -- in this way; vilapite -- speaking in lamentation; ardha-ratri 
gela -- half the night passed; gambhirate -- in the room known as the 
Gambhira; svarupa-gosani -- Svarupa Damodara Gosvami; prabhure soyaila --
 made the Lord lie down.
 
TRANSLATION
 
As Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu lamented in this way, half the night passed. 
Then Svarupa Damodara made the Lord lie down in the room known as the 
Gambhira.
 
Antya 19.56
 
TEXT 56
 
TEXT
 
prabhure soyana ramananda gela ghare
svarupa, govinda suila gambhirara dvare
SYNONYMS
 
prabhure -- Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; soyana -- making lie down; 
ramananda -- Ramananda Raya; gela ghare -- returned to his home; svarupa 
-- Svarupa Damodara Gosvami; govinda -- Govinda; suila -- lay down; 
gambhirara dvare -- at the door of the Gambhira.
 
TRANSLATION
 
After the Lord was made to lie down, Ramananda Raya returned home, and 
Svarupa Damodara and Govinda lay down at the door of the Gambhira.
 
Antya 19.57
 
TEXT 57
 
TEXT
 
premavese mahaprabhura gara-gara mana
nama-sankirtana kari' karena jagarana
SYNONYMS
 
prema-avese -- in greatly ecstatic emotion; mahaprabhura -- of Sri 
Caitanya Mahaprabhu; gara-gara mana -- the mind was fully overwhelmed; 
nama-sankirtana kari' -- chanting the Hare Krsna mantra; karena -- does; 
jagarana -- wakefulness.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu stayed awake all night, chanting the Hare Krsna 
maha-mantra, His mind overwhelmed by spiritual ecstasy.
 
Antya 19.58
 
TEXT 58
 
TEXT
 
virahe vyakula prabhu udvege uthila
gambhirara bhittye mukha ghasite lagila
SYNONYMS
 
virahe -- in the lamentation of separation; vyakula -- very much 
agitated; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; udvege -- in great anxiety; 
uthila -- stood up; gambhirara -- of the Gambhira; bhittye -- on the 
walls; mukha -- face; ghasite -- to rub; lagila -- began.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Feeling separation from Krsna, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu was so distraught 
that in great anxiety He stood up and began rubbing His face against the 
walls of the Gambhira.
 
Antya 19.59
 
TEXT 59
 
TEXT
 
mukhe, gande, nake ksata ha-ila apara
bhavavese na janena prabhu, pade rakta-dhara
SYNONYMS
 
mukhe -- on the mouth; gande -- on the cheeks; nake -- on the nose; 
ksata -- injuries; ha-ila -- there were; apara -- many; bhava-avese -- 
in ecstatic emotion; na janena -- could not understand; prabhu -- Sri 
Caitanya Mahaprabhu; pade -- oozes out; rakta-dhara -- a flow of blood.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Blood oozed from the many injuries on His mouth, nose and cheeks, but 
due to His ecstatic emotions, the Lord did not know it.
 
Antya 19.60
 
TEXT 60
 
TEXT
 
sarva-ratri karena bhave mukha sangharsana
gon-gon-sabda karena, -- svarupa sunila takhana
SYNONYMS
 
sarva-ratri -- the whole night; karena -- does; bhave -- in emotion; 
mukha sangharsana -- rubbing of the face; gon-gon-sabda karena -- makes 
a peculiar sound, gon-gon; svarupa -- Svarupa Damodara Gosvami; sunila --
 heard; takhana -- then.
 
TRANSLATION
 
In ecstasy, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu rubbed His face against the walls 
all night long, making a peculiar sound, "gon-gon," which Svarupa 
Damodara could hear through the door.
 
Antya 19.61
 
TEXT 61
 
TEXT
 
dipa jvali' ghare gela, dekhi' prabhura mukha
svarupa, govinda dunhara haila bada duhkha
SYNONYMS
 
dipa jvali' -- lighting the lamp; ghare -- in the room; gela -- went; 
dekhi' -- seeing; prabhura mukha -- the face of the Lord; svarupa -- 
Svarupa Damodara Gosvami; govinda -- and Govinda; dunhara -- of both of 
them; haila bada duhkha -- there was great unhappiness.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Lighting a lamp, Svarupa Damodara and Govinda entered the room. When 
they saw the Lord's face, they were filled with sorrow.
 
Antya 19.62
 
TEXT 62
 
TEXT
 
prabhure sayyate ani' susthira karaila
'kanhe kaila ei tumi?' -- svarupa puchila
SYNONYMS
 
prabhure -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; sayyate -- to the bed; ani' -- 
bringing; su-sthira karaila -- made Him pacified; kanhe -- why; 
kaila -- have done; ei -- this; tumi -- You; svarupa puchila -- Svarupa 
Damodara Gosvami inquired.
 
TRANSLATION
 
They brought the Lord to His bed, calmed Him and then asked, "Why have 
You done this to Yourself?"
 
Antya 19.63
 
TEXT 63
 
TEXT
 
prabhu kahena, -- "udvege ghare na pari rahite
dvara cahi' buli' sighra bahira ha-ite
SYNONYMS
 
prabhu kahena -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu replied; udvege -- out of great 
agitation; ghare -- within the room; na pari -- I was not able; rahite --
 to stay; dvara cahi' -- looking for the door; buli' -- wandering; 
sighra -- quickly; bahira ha-ite -- to get out.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu replied, "I was in such anxiety that I could not 
stay in the room. I wanted to go out, and therefore I wandered about the 
room, looking for the door.
 
Antya 19.64
 
TEXT 64
 
TEXT
 
dvara nahi' pana mukha lage cari-bhite
ksata haya, rakta pade, na pai yaite"
SYNONYMS
 
dvara nahi' pana -- not finding the door; mukha lage -- My face strikes; 
cari-bhite -- on the four walls; ksata haya -- there was injury; rakta 
pade -- blood came out; na pai yaite -- still I could not get out.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"Unable to find the door, I kept hitting the four walls with My face. My 
face was injured, and it bled, but I still could not get out."
 
Antya 19.65
 
TEXT 65
 
TEXT
 
unmada-dasaya prabhura sthira nahe mana
yei kare, yei bole saba, -- unmada-laksana
SYNONYMS
 
unmada-dasaya -- in such a state of madness; prabhura -- of Sri Caitanya 
Mahaprabhu; sthira nahe mana -- the mind is not steady; yei kare -- 
whatever He does; yei bole -- whatever He says; saba -- all; unmada-
laksana -- simply symptoms of madness.
 
TRANSLATION
 
In this state of madness, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu's mind was unsteady. 
Whatever He said or did was all symptomatic of madness.
 
Antya 19.66
 
TEXT 66
 
TEXT
 
svarupa-gosani tabe cinta paila mane
bhakta-gana lana vicara kaila ara dine
SYNONYMS
 
svarupa-gosani -- Svarupa Damodara Gosvami; tabe -- thereafter; cinta -- 
an anxiety or thought; paila mane -- got in his mind; bhakta-gana lana --
 among all the devotees; vicara kaila -- considered; ara dine -- the 
next day.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Svarupa Damodara was very anxious, but then he had an idea. The 
following day, he and the other devotees considered it together.
 
Antya 19.67
 
TEXT 67
 
TEXT
 
saba bhakta meli' tabe prabhure sadhila
sankara-pandite prabhura sange soyaila
SYNONYMS
 
saba bhakta meli' -- all the devotees, meeting together; tabe -- 
thereupon; prabhure sadhila -- entreated Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; 
sankara-pandite -- Sankara Pandita; prabhura -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; 
sange -- with; soyaila -- made to lie down.
 
TRANSLATION
 
After consulting with one another, they entreated Sri Caitanya 
Mahaprabhu to allow Sankara Pandita to lie down in the same room with 
Him.
 
Antya 19.68
 
TEXT 68
 
TEXT
 
prabhu-pada-tale sankara karena sayana
prabhu tanra upara karena pada-prasarana
SYNONYMS
 
prabhu-pada-tale -- at the lotus feet of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; 
sankara -- Sankara; karena sayana -- lies down; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya 
Mahaprabhu; tanra -- of him; upara -- on the body; karena -- does; pada-
prasarana -- extending His legs.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Thus Sankara Pandita lay at the feet of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, and the 
Lord placed His legs upon Sankara's body.
 
Antya 19.69
 
TEXT 69
 
TEXT
 
'prabhu-padopadhana' bali' tanra nama ha-ila
purve vidure yena sri-suka varnila
SYNONYMS
 
prabhu-pada-upadhana -- the pillow of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu's legs; 
bali' -- calling as such; tanra nama -- his name; ha-ila -- became; 
purve -- formerly; vidure -- Vidura; yena -- as; sri-suka varnila -- Sri 
Sukadeva Gosvami described.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Sankara became celebrated by the name Prabhu-padopadhana ["the pillow of 
Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu"]. He was like Vidura, as Sukadeva Gosvami 
previously described him.
 
Antya 19.70
 
TEXT 70
 
TEXT
 
iti bruvanam viduram vinitam
 sahasra-sirsnas caranopadhanam
prahrsta-roma bhagavat-kathayam
 praniyamano munir abhyacasta
SYNONYMS
 
iti -- thus; bruvanam -- speaking; viduram -- to Vidura; vinitam -- 
submissive; sahasra-sirsnah -- of Lord Krsna; carana-upadhanam -- the 
resting pillow for the legs; prahrsta-roma -- whose hairs on the body 
were standing; bhagavat-kathayam -- in topics of the Supreme Personality 
of Godhead; praniyamanah -- being induced; munih -- the great sage 
Maitreya; abhyacasta -- began to speak.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"When submissive Vidura, the resting place of the legs of Lord Krsna, 
had thus spoken to Maitreya, Maitreya began speaking, his hair standing 
on end due to the transcendental pleasure of discussing topics 
concerning Lord Krsna."
 
PURPORT
 
This is a quotation from Srimad-Bhagavatam (3.13.5).
 
Antya 19.71
 
TEXT 71
 
TEXT
 
sankara karena prabhura pada-samvahana
ghumana padena, taiche karena sayana
SYNONYMS
 
sankara -- Sankara; karena -- does; prabhura -- of Sri Caitanya 
Mahaprabhu; pada-samvahana -- massaging the legs; ghumana padena -- he 
falls asleep; taiche -- in that way; karena sayana -- he lies down.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Sankara massaged the legs of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, but while 
massaging he would fall asleep and thus lie down.
 
Antya 19.72
 
TEXT 72
 
TEXT
 
ughada-ange padiya sankara nidra yaya
prabhu uthi' apana-kantha tahare jadaya
SYNONYMS
 
ughada-ange -- without a covering over the body; padiya -- lying down; 
sankara -- Sankara; nidra yaya -- goes to sleep; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya 
Mahaprabhu; uthi' -- getting up; apana-kantha -- His own quilt; tahare 
jadaya -- wraps him with.
 
TRANSLATION
 
He would lie asleep without a covering on his body, and Sri Caitanya 
Mahaprabhu would get up and wrap him with His own quilt.
 
Antya 19.73
 
TEXT 73
 
TEXT
 
nirantara ghumaya sankara sighra-cetana
vasi' pada capi' kare ratri-jagarana
SYNONYMS
 
nirantara -- incessantly; ghumaya -- sleeps; sankara -- Sankara; sighra -
- very quickly; cetana -- waking up; vasi' -- sitting; pada capi' -- 
massaging the legs; kare -- does; ratri-jagarana -- keeps awake at night.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Sankara Pandita would always fall asleep, but he would quickly awaken, 
sit up and again begin massaging the legs of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu. In 
this way he would stay awake the entire night.
 
Antya 19.74
 
TEXT 74
 
TEXT
 
tanra bhaye narena prabhu bahire yaite
tanra bhaye narena bhittye mukhabja ghasite
SYNONYMS
 
tanra bhaye -- because of fear of him; narena -- was not able; prabhu -- 
Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; bahire yaite -- to go out; tanra bhaye -- 
because of fear of him; narena -- was not able; bhittye -- on the walls; 
mukha-abja ghasite -- to rub His lotuslike face.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Out of fear of Sankara, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu could neither leave His 
room nor rub His lotuslike face against the walls.
 
Antya 19.75
 
TEXT 75
 
TEXT
 
ei lila mahaprabhura raghunatha-dasa
gauranga-stava-kalpavrkse kariyache prakasa
SYNONYMS
 
ei lila -- this pastime; mahaprabhura -- of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; 
raghunatha-dasa -- Raghunatha dasa Gosvami; gauranga-stava-kalpa-vrkse --
 in his book known as Gauranga-stava-kalpavrksa; kariyache prakasa -- 
has described very nicely.
 
TRANSLATION
 
This pastime of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu's has been described very nicely 
by Raghunatha dasa Gosvami in his book known as Gauranga-stava-
kalpavrksa.
 
Antya 19.76
 
TEXT 76
 
TEXT
 
svakiyasya pranarbuda-sadrsa-gosthasya virahat
 pralapan unmadat satatam ati kurvan vikala-dhih
dadhad bhittau sasvad vadana-vidhu-gharsena rudhiram
 ksatottham gaurango hrdaya udayan mam madayati
SYNONYMS
 
svakiyasya -- His own; prana-arbuda -- uncountable breaths of life; 
sadrsa -- like; gosthasya -- of Vrndavana; virahat -- because of 
separation; pralapan -- crazy talks; unmadat -- because of madness; 
satatam -- always; ati -- very much; kurvan -- doing; vikala-dhih -- 
whose intelligence was disturbed; dadhat -- oozing forth; bhittau -- on 
the walls; sasvat -- always; vadana-vidhu -- of His moonlike face; 
gharsena -- by rubbing; rudhiram -- blood; ksata-uttham -- coming forth 
from injuries; gaurangah -- Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; hrdaye -- in 
my heart; udayan -- rising; mam -- me; madayati -- maddens.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"Because of separation from His many friends in Vrndavana, who were like 
His own life, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu spoke like a madman. His 
intelligence was transformed. Day and night He rubbed His moonlike face 
against the walls, and blood flowed from the injuries. May that Sri 
Caitanya Mahaprabhu rise in my heart and make me mad with love."
 
Antya 19.77
 
TEXT 77
 
TEXT
 
ei-mata mahaprabhu ratri-divase
prema-sindhu-magna rahe, kabhu dube, bhase
SYNONYMS
 
ei-mata -- in this way; mahaprabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; ratri-
divase -- day and night; prema-sindhu-magna rahe -- remains merged in 
the ocean of love of Krsna; kabhu dube -- sometimes drowns; bhase -- 
floats.
 
TRANSLATION
 
In this way Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu stayed immersed day and 
night in an ocean of ecstatic love for Krsna. Sometimes He was submerged,
 and sometimes He floated.
 
Antya 19.78
 
TEXT 78
 
TEXT
 
eka-kale vaisakhera paurnamasi-dine
ratri-kale mahaprabhu calila udyane
SYNONYMS
 
eka-kale -- once; vaisakhera -- of the month of Vaisakha (
April-May); paurnamasi-dine -- on the full-moon night; ratri-kale -- at 
night; mahaprabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; calila -- went; udyane -- 
to a garden.
 
TRANSLATION
 
One full-moon night in the month of Vaisakha [April-May], Sri 
Caitanya Mahaprabhu went to a garden.
 
Antya 19.79
 
TEXT 79
 
TEXT
 
'jagannatha-vallabha' nama udyana-pradhane
pravesa karila prabhu lana bhakta-gane
SYNONYMS
 
jagannatha-vallabha -- Jagannatha-vallabha; nama -- named; udyana-
pradhane -- one of the best gardens; pravesa karila -- entered; prabhu --
 Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; lana -- taking; bhakta-gane -- the devotees.
 
TRANSLATION
 
The Lord, along with His devotees, entered one of the nicest gardens, 
called Jagannatha-vallabha.
 
Antya 19.80
 
TEXT 80
 
TEXT
 
praphullita vrksa-valli, -- yena vrndavana
suka, sari, pika, bhrnga kare alapana
SYNONYMS
 
praphullita -- fully blossomed; vrksa-valli -- trees and creepers; yena 
vrndavana -- exactly resembling Vrndavana; suka -- the suka birds; sari -
- the sari birds; pika -- the pika birds; bhrnga -- the bumblebees; kare 
-- do; alapana -- talking with one another.
 
TRANSLATION
 
In the garden were fully blossomed trees and creepers exactly like those 
in Vrndavana. Bumblebees and birds like the suka, sari and pika talked 
with one another.
 
Antya 19.81
 
TEXT 81
 
TEXT
 
puspa-gandha lana vahe malaya-pavana
'guru' hana taru-lataya sikhaya nacana
SYNONYMS
 
puspa-gandha -- the fragrance of the flowers; lana -- taking; vahe -- 
blows; malaya-pavana -- the mild breeze; guru hana -- becoming the 
spiritual master; taru-lataya -- to the trees and creepers; sikhaya -- 
instructs; nacana -- dancing.
 
TRANSLATION
 
A mild breeze was blowing, carrying the fragrance of aromatic flowers. 
The breeze had become a guru and was teaching all the trees and creepers 
how to dance.
 
Antya 19.82
 
TEXT 82
 
TEXT
 
purna-candra-candrikaya parama ujjvala
taru-latadi jyotsnaya kare jhalamala
SYNONYMS
 
purna-candra -- of the full moon; candrikaya -- by the shine; parama -- 
very; ujjvala -- bright; taru-lata-adi -- the creepers, trees and so on; 
jyotsnaya -- in the illumination of the moonshine; kare -- do; jhalamala 
-- glittering.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Brightly illuminated by the full moon, the trees and creepers glittered 
in the light.
 
Antya 19.83
 
TEXT 83
 
TEXT
 
chaya rtu-gana yahan vasanta pradhana
dekhi' anandita haila gaura bhagavan
SYNONYMS
 
chaya -- six; rtu-gana -- seasons; yahan -- where; vasanta pradhana -- 
the spring season was chief; dekhi' -- seeing; anandita -- very pleased; 
haila -- became; gaura -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; bhagavan -- the 
Supreme Personality of Godhead.
 
TRANSLATION
 
The six seasons, especially spring, seemed present there. Seeing the 
garden, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, the Supreme Personality of Godhead, was 
very happy.
 
Antya 19.84
 
TEXT 84
 
TEXT
 
"lalita-lavanga-lata" pada gaoyana
nrtya kari' bulena prabhu nija-gana lana
SYNONYMS
 
lalita-lavanga-lata -- beginning with the words lalita-lavanga-lata; 
pada -- the verse; gaoyana -- making sing; nrtya kari' -- dancing; 
bulena -- wanders; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; nija-gana lana -- 
accompanied by His personal associates.
 
TRANSLATION
 
In this atmosphere, the Lord had His associates sing the verse from the 
Gita-govinda beginning with the words "lalita-lavanga-lata" as He 
danced and wandered about with them.
 
Antya 19.85
 
TEXT 85
 
TEXT
 
prati-vrksa-valli aiche bhramite bhramite
asokera tale krsne dekhena acambite
SYNONYMS
 
prati-vrksa-valli -- around each and every tree and creeper; aiche -- in 
that way; bhramite bhramite -- wandering; asokera tale -- underneath an 
asoka tree; krsne -- Lord Krsna; dekhena -- He sees; acambite -- 
suddenly.
 
TRANSLATION
 
As He thus wandered around every tree and creeper, He came beneath an 
asoka tree and suddenly saw Lord Krsna.
 
Antya 19.86
 
TEXT 86
 
TEXT
 
krsna dekhi' mahaprabhu dhana calila
age dekhi' hasi' krsna antardhana ha-ila
SYNONYMS
 
krsna dekhi' -- seeing Krsna; mahaprabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; 
dhana calila -- began to run very swiftly; age -- ahead; dekhi' -- 
seeing; hasi' -- smiling; krsna -- Lord Krsna; antardhana ha-ila -- 
disappeared.
 
TRANSLATION
 
When He saw Krsna, Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu began running very swiftly, 
but Krsna smiled and disappeared.
 
Antya 19.87
 
TEXT 87
 
TEXT
 
age paila krsne, tanre punah harana
bhumete padila prabhu murcchita hana
SYNONYMS
 
age -- in the beginning; paila -- got; krsne -- Lord Krsna; tanre -- Him;
 punah -- again; harana -- losing; bhumete -- on the ground; padila -- 
fell down; prabhu -- Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; murcchita -- 
unconscious; hana -- becoming.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Having gotten Krsna and then lost Him, Sri Caitanya 
Mahaprabhu fell to the ground unconscious.
 
Antya 19.88
 
TEXT 88
 
TEXT
 
krsnera sri-anga-gandhe bhariche udyane
sei gandha pana prabhu haila acetane
SYNONYMS
 
krsnera -- of Lord Krsna; sri-anga-gandhe -- the aroma of the 
transcendental body; bhariche -- filled; udyane -- in the garden; sei 
gandha pana -- getting that aroma; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; 
haila -- became; acetane -- unconscious.
 
TRANSLATION
 
The entire garden was filled with the scent of Lord Sri Krsna's 
transcendental body. When Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu smelled it, He fell 
unconscious at once.
 
Antya 19.89
 
TEXT 89
 
TEXT
 
nirantara nasaya pase krsna-parimala
gandha asvadite prabhu ha-ila pagala
SYNONYMS
 
nirantara -- incessantly; nasaya -- in the nostrils; pase -- enters; 
krsna-parimala -- the scent of Krsna's body; gandha asvadite -- to 
relish the fragrance; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; ha-ila pagala --
 became mad.
 
TRANSLATION
 
But the scent of Krsna's body incessantly entered His nostrils,
 and the Lord became mad to relish it.
 
Antya 19.90
 
TEXT 90
 
TEXT
 
krsna-gandha-lubdha radha sakhire ye kahila
sei sloka padi' prabhu artha karila
SYNONYMS
 
krsna-gandha -- the scent of the body of Krsna; lubdha -- hankering 
after; radha -- Srimati Radharani; sakhire -- to Her gopi friends; ye 
kahila -- whatever She said; sei -- that; sloka -- verse; padi' -- 
reciting; prabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; artha karila -- explained 
its meaning.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Srimati Radharani once spoke a verse to Her gopi friends describing 
how She hankers for the transcendental scent of Krsna's body. Sri 
Caitanya Mahaprabhu recited that same verse and made its meaning clear.
 
Antya 19.91
 
TEXT 91
 
TEXT
 
kuranga-mada-jid-vapuh-parimalormi-krstanganah
 svakanga-nalinastake sasi-yutabja-gandha-prathah
madenduvara-candanaguru-sugandhi-carcarcitah
 sa me madana-mohanah sakhi tanoti nasa-sprham
SYNONYMS
 
kuranga-mada-jit -- conquering the aromatic smell of musk; vapuh -- of 
His transcendental body; parimala-urmi -- with waves of scent; krsta-
anganah -- attracting the gopis of Vrndavana; svaka-anga-nalina-astake --
 on all eight lotuslike parts of the body (face, navel, eyes, 
palms and feet); sasi-yuta-abja-gandha-prathah -- who distributes the 
scent of the lotus mixed with camphor; mada-induvara-candana-aguru-
sugandhi-carca-arcitah -- smeared with the unguents of musk, camphor, 
white sandalwood and aguru; sah -- He; me -- My; madana-mohanah -- Lord 
Krsna, who enchants even Cupid; sakhi -- O My dear friends; tanoti -- 
increases; nasa-sprham -- the desire of My nostrils.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"‘The scent of Krsna's transcendental body surpasses the aroma of musk 
and attracts the minds of all women. The eight lotuslike parts of His 
body distribute the fragrance of lotuses mixed with that of camphor. His 
body is anointed with aromatic substances like musk, camphor, sandalwood 
and aguru. O My dear friend, that Personality of Godhead, also known as 
the enchanter of Cupid, always increases the desire of My nostrils.'
 
PURPORT
 
This verse is found in the Govinda-lilamrta (8.6).
 
Antya 19.92
 
TEXT 92
 
TEXT
 
kasturika-nilotpala,     tara yei parimala,
taha jini' krsna-anga-gandha
vyape caudda-bhuvane,     kare sarva akarsane,
nari-ganera ankhi kare andha
SYNONYMS
 
kasturika -- musk; nilotpala -- combined with the bluish lotus flower; 
tara -- its; yei -- whatever; parimala -- scent; taha -- that; jini' -- 
conquering; krsna-anga -- of the transcendental body of Krsna; gandha -- 
the scent; vyape -- spreads; caudda-bhuvane -- throughout the fourteen 
worlds; kare -- does; sarva akarsane -- attracting everyone; nari-ganera 
-- of the women; ankhi -- the eyes; kare -- makes; andha -- blind.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"The scent of Krsna's body surpasses the fragrances of musk and the 
bluish lotus flower. Spreading throughout the fourteen worlds, it 
attracts everyone and makes the eyes of all women blind.
 
Antya 19.93
 
TEXT 93
 
TEXT
 
sakhi he, krsna-gandha jagat mataya
narira nasate pase,     sarva-kala tahan vaise,
krsna-pasa dhari' lana yaya
SYNONYMS
 
sakhi he -- O My dear friend; krsna-gandha -- the fragrance of the body 
of Krsna; jagat mataya -- enchants the whole world; narira -- of women; 
nasate -- in the nostrils; pase -- enters; sarva-kala -- always; tahan --
 there; vaise -- remains; krsna-pasa -- to the side of Lord Krsna; dhari'
 -- catching; lana yaya -- takes one.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"My dear friend, the scent of Krsna's body enchants the entire world. It 
especially enters the nostrils of women and remains seated there. Thus 
it captures them and forcibly brings them to Krsna.
 
Antya 19.94
 
TEXT 94
 
TEXT
 
netra-nabhi, vadana,     kara-yuga carana,
ei asta-padma krsna-ange
karpura-lipta kamala,     tara yaiche parimala,
sei gandha asta-padma-sange
SYNONYMS
 
netra -- the eyes; nabhi -- the navel; vadana -- the face; kara-yuga -- 
the palms; carana -- the feet; ei -- these; asta -- eight; padma -- 
lotus flowers; krsna-ange -- in the body of Krsna; karpura -- with 
camphor; lipta -- smeared; kamala -- the lotus flower; tara -- of that; 
yaiche -- like; parimala -- the fragrance; sei gandha -- that fragrance; 
asta-padma-sange -- is associated with the eight lotus flowers.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"Krsna's eyes, navel and face, hands and feet are like eight lotus 
flowers on His body. From those eight lotuses emanates a fragrance like 
a mixture of camphor and lotus. That is the scent associated with His 
body.
 
Antya 19.95
 
TEXT 95
 
TEXT
 
hema-kilita candana,     taha kari' gharsana,
tahe aguru, kunkuma, kasturi
karpura-sane carca ange,     purva angera gandha sange,
mili' tare yena kaila curi
SYNONYMS
 
hema -- with gold; kilita -- bedecked; candana -- white sandalwood; taha 
-- that; kari' -- doing; gharsana -- rubbing; tahe -- in that; aguru -- 
the aguru fragrance; kunkuma -- kunkuma; kasturi -- and musk; karpura -- 
camphor; sane -- with; carca -- smearing; ange -- on the body; purva -- 
previous; angera -- of the body; gandha -- scent; sange -- with; mili' --
 combining; tare -- that; yena -- as if; kaila -- did; curi -- stealing 
or covering.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"When sandalwood pulp is mixed with aguru, kunkuma, musk and
 camphor and spread on Krsna's body, it combines with Krsna's own 
original bodily perfume and seems to cover it.
 
PURPORT
 
In another version, the last line of this verse reads kamadevera mana 
kaila curi. This means "the scent of all these substances mixes with the 
previous scent of Krsna's body and steals away the mind of Cupid."
 
Antya 19.96
 
TEXT 96
 
TEXT
 
hare narira tanu-mana,     nasa kare ghurnana,
khasaya nivi, chutaya kesa-bandha
kariya age bauri,     nacaya jagat-nari,
hena dakatiya krsnanga-gandha
SYNONYMS
 
hare -- enchants; narira -- of women; tanu-mana -- the minds and bodies; 
nasa -- the nostrils; kare ghurnana -- bewilders; khasaya -- slackens; 
nivi -- the belt; chutaya -- loosens; kesa-bandha -- the bunch of hair; 
kariya -- acting; age -- in front; bauri -- like madwomen; nacaya -- 
causes to dance; jagat-nari -- all the women of the world; hena -- such; 
dakatiya -- a plunderer; krsna-anga-gandha -- the scent of Krsna's body.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"The scent of Krsna's transcendental body is so attractive that it 
enchants the bodies and minds of all women. It bewilders their nostrils, 
loosens their belts and hair, and makes them madwomen. All the women of 
the world come under its influence, and therefore the scent of Krsna's 
body is like a plunderer.
 
Antya 19.97
 
TEXT 97
 
TEXT
 
sei gandha-vasa nasa,     sada kare gandhera asa,
kabhu paya, kabhu nahi paya
paile piya peta bhare,     pina pina tabu kare,
na paile trsnaya mari' yaya
SYNONYMS
 
sei -- that; gandha-vasa -- under the control of the fragrance; nasa -- 
the nostrils; sada -- always; kare -- make; gandhera -- for the 
fragrance; asa -- hope; kabhu paya -- sometimes they obtain; kabhu nahi 
paya -- sometimes do not obtain; paile -- if obtaining; piya -- drinking;
 peta -- the belly; bhare -- fills; pina -- let me drink; pina -- let me 
drink; tabu -- still; kare -- they hanker; na paile -- if they do not 
get; trsnaya -- out of thirst; mari' yaya -- they die.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"Falling completely under its influence, the nostrils yearn for it 
continuously, although sometimes they obtain it and sometimes not. When 
they do they drink their fill, though they still want more and more, but 
if they don't, out of thirst they die.
 
Antya 19.98
 
TEXT 98
 
TEXT
 
madana-mohana-nata,     pasari gandhera hata,
jagan-nari-grahake lobhaya
vina-mulye deya gandha,     gandha diya kare andha,
ghara yaite patha nahi paya"
SYNONYMS
 
madana-mohana-nata -- the dramatic player Madana-mohana; pasari -- a 
dealer; gandhera hata -- in a market of scents; jagat-nari -- of the 
women of the whole world; grahake -- to the customers; lobhaya -- 
attracts; vina-mulye -- without a price; deya -- distributes; gandha -- 
the scent; gandha diya -- delivering the scent; kare andha -- makes the 
customers blind; ghara yaite -- to return home; patha -- the path; nahi 
paya -- do not find.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"The dramatic actor Madana-mohana has opened a shop of scents that 
attract the women of the world to be His customers. He delivers the 
scents freely, but they make the women all so blind they cannot find the 
path returning home."
 
Antya 19.99
 
TEXT 99
 
TEXT
 
ei-mata gaurahari,     gandhe kaila mana curi,
bhrnga-praya iti-uti dhaya
yaya vrksa-lata-pase,     krsna sphure -- sei ase,
krsna na paya, gandha-matra paya
SYNONYMS
 
ei-mata -- in this way; gaurahari -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; gandhe -- 
by the scent; kaila -- did; mana curi -- stealing of the mind; bhrnga-
praya -- just like a bumblebee; iti-uti dhaya -- wanders here and there; 
yaya -- goes; vrksa-lata-pase -- by the side of the trees and creepers; 
krsna sphure -- Lord Krsna will appear; sei ase -- by that hope; krsna 
na paya -- does not obtain Krsna; gandha-matra paya -- gets only the 
scent.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu, His mind thus stolen by the scent of Krsna's 
body, ran here and there like a bumblebee. He ran to the trees and 
plants, hoping that Lord Krsna would appear, but instead He found only 
that scent.
 
Antya 19.100
 
TEXT 100
 
TEXT
 
svarupa-ramananda gaya,     prabhu nace, sukha paya,
ei-mate pratah-kala haila
svarupa-ramananda-raya,     kari nana upaya,
mahaprabhura bahya-sphurti kaila
SYNONYMS
 
svarupa-ramananda gaya -- Svarupa Damodara Gosvami and Ramananda Raya 
sing; prabhu nace -- Lord Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu dances; sukha paya -- 
enjoys happiness; ei-mate -- in this way; pratah-kala haila -- morning 
arrived; svarupa-ramananda-raya -- both Svarupa Damodara Gosvami and 
Ramananda Raya; kari -- devising; nana -- various; upaya -- means; 
mahaprabhura -- of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; bahya-sphurti kaila -- 
awakened the external consciousness.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Both Svarupa Damodara and Ramananda Raya sang to the Lord, who danced 
and enjoyed happiness until the morning arrived. Then the Lord's two 
associates devised a plan to bring Him to external consciousness.
 
Antya 19.101
 
TEXT 101
 
TEXT
 
matr-bhakti, pralapana,     bhittye mukha-gharsana,
krsna-gandha-sphurtye divya-nrtya
ei cari-lila-bhede,     gaila ei paricchede,
krsnadasa rupa-gosani-bhrtya
SYNONYMS
 
matr-bhakti -- devotion to His mother; pralapana -- words of madness; 
bhittye -- on the walls; mukha-gharsana -- rubbing His face; krsna-
gandha -- of Lord Krsna's fragrance; sphurtye -- on the appearance; 
divya-nrtya -- transcendental dancing; ei -- these; cari -- four; lila --
 pastimes; bhede -- different; gaila -- has sung; ei paricchede -- in 
this chapter; krsnadasa -- Krsnadasa Kaviraja; rupa-gosani-bhrtya -- 
servant of Srila Rupa Gosvami.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Thus, I, Krsnadasa, the servant of Srila Rupa Gosvami, have sung of four 
divisions of the Lord's pastimes in this chapter: the Lord's devotion to 
His mother, His words of madness, His rubbing His face against the walls 
at night, and His dancing at the appearance of Lord Krsna's fragrance.
 
PURPORT
 
Krsnadasa Kaviraja Gosvami says that he has been able to describe these 
four pastimes of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu by the blessings of Srila Rupa 
Gosvami. Krsnadasa Kaviraja Gosvami was not actually a direct disciple 
of Srila Rupa Gosvami, but he followed the instructions given by Srila 
Rupa Gosvami in the Bhakti-rasamrta-sindhu. He therefore acted according 
to the directions of Rupa Gosvami and prayed in every chapter for his 
mercy.
 
Antya 19.102
 
TEXT 102
 
TEXT
 
ei-mata mahaprabhu pana cetana
snana kari' kaila jagannatha-darasana
SYNONYMS
 
ei-mata -- in this way; mahaprabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; pana 
cetana -- becoming conscious; snana kari' -- after bathing; kaila 
jagannatha-darasana -- saw Lord Jagannatha.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu thus returned to external consciousness. He then 
bathed and went to see Lord Jagannatha.
 
Antya 19.103
 
TEXT 103
 
TEXT
 
alaukika krsna-lila, divya-sakti tara
tarkera gocara nahe caritra yahara
SYNONYMS
 
alaukika -- uncommon; krsna-lila -- pastimes of Lord Krsna; divya-sakti -
- transcendental potency; tara -- of that; tarkera -- of argument; 
gocara -- within the purview; nahe -- is not; caritra -- the 
characteristics; yahara -- of which.
 
TRANSLATION
 
The pastimes of Lord Krsna are uncommonly full of transcendental potency.
 It is a characteristic of such pastimes that they do not fall within 
the jurisdiction of experimental logic and arguments.
 
Antya 19.104
 
TEXT 104
 
TEXT
 
ei prema sada jage yahara antare
panditeha tara cesta bujhite na pare
SYNONYMS
 
ei -- this; prema -- love of Godhead; sada -- always; jage -- awakens; 
yahara -- of whom; antare -- within the heart; panditeha -- even a 
learned scholar; tara -- his; cesta -- activities; bujhite -- to 
understand; na pare -- cannot.
 
TRANSLATION
 
When transcendental love of Krsna awakens in someone's heart, even a 
learned scholar cannot comprehend his activities.
 
Antya 19.105
 
TEXT 105
 
TEXT
 
dhanyasyayam navah prema
 yasyonmilati cetasi
antar-vanibhir apy asya
 mudra susthu su-durgama
SYNONYMS
 
dhanyasya -- of a most fortunate person; ayam -- this; navah -- new; 
prema -- love of Godhead; yasya -- of whom; unmilati -- manifests; 
cetasi -- in the heart; antah-vanibhih -- by persons well versed 
in the sastras; api -- even; asya -- of him; mudra -- the symptoms; 
susthu -- exceedingly; su-durgama -- difficult to understand.
 
TRANSLATION
 
"The activities and symptoms of that exalted personality in whose heart 
love of Godhead has awakened cannot be understood even by the most 
learned scholar."
 
PURPORT
 
This verse is quoted from the Bhakti-rasamrta-sindhu (1.4.17).
 
Antya 19.106
 
TEXT 106
 
TEXT
 
alaukika prabhura ‘cesta', ‘pralapa' suniya
tarka na kariha, suna visvasa kariya
SYNONYMS
 
alaukika -- uncommon; prabhura -- of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; cesta -- 
the activities; pralapa -- talking in madness; suniya -- hearing; tarka -
- unnecessary arguments; na kariha -- do not make; suna -- simply hear; 
visvasa kariya -- having full faith.
 
TRANSLATION
 
The activities of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu are undoubtedly uncommon, 
especially His talking like a madman. Therefore, one who hears of these 
pastimes should not put forward mundane arguments. He should simply hear 
the pastimes with full faith.
 
Antya 19.107
 
TEXT 107
 
TEXT
 
ihara satyatve pramana sri-bhagavate
sri-radhara prema-pralapa ‘bhramara-gita'te
SYNONYMS
 
ihara -- of these talks; satyatve -- in the truthfulness; pramana -- the 
evidence; sri-bhagavate -- in Srimad-Bhagavatam; sri-radhara -- of 
Srimati Radharani; prema-pralapa -- talking crazily in ecstatic love; 
bhramara-gitate -- in the section known as the Bhramara-gita.
 
TRANSLATION
 
The evidence of the truth of these talks is found in Srimad-Bhagavatam. 
There, in the section of the Tenth Canto known as the Bhramara-gita, "
The Song to the Bumblebee," Srimati Radharani speaks insanely in 
ecstatic love for Krsna.
 
PURPORT
 
When Uddhava arrived from Mathura carrying a message for the gopis, the 
gopis began talking about Krsna and crying. Then Srimati Radharani 
saw a bumblebee and began speaking to it like someone mad, thinking that 
the bee was a messenger of Uddhava's or was someone very dear to him and 
Krsna. The verses are as follows (SB 10.47.12–21):
 
madhupa kitava-bandho ma sprsanghrim sapatnyah
 kuca-vilulita-mala-kunkuma-smasrubhir nah
vahatu madhu-patis tan-manininam prasadam
 yadu-sadasi vidambyam yasya dutas tvam idrk
 
"My dear bumblebee, you are a very cunning friend of Uddhava and Krsna. 
You are very expert in touching people's feet, but I am not going to be 
misled by this. You appear to have sat on the breasts of one of Krsna's 
friends, for I see that you have kunkuma dust on your mustache. Krsna is 
now engaged in flattering all His young girlfriends in Mathura. 
Therefore, now that He can be called a friend of the residents of 
Mathura, He does not need the help of the residents of Vrndavana. He has 
no reason to satisfy us gopis. Since you are the messenger of such a 
person as He, what is the use of your presence here? Certainly Krsna 
would be ashamed of your presence in this assembly."
 
How has Krsna offended the gopis so that they want to reject Him from 
their minds? The answer is given as follows:
 
sakrd adhara-sudham svam mohinim payayitva
 sumanasa iva sadyas tatyaje ‘sman bhavadrk
paricarati katham tat-pada-padmam tu padma
 hy api bata hrta-ceta uttama-sloka-jalpaih
 
"Krsna no longer gives us the enchanting nectar of His lips; instead, He 
now gives that nectar to the women of Mathura. Krsna directly attracts 
our minds, yet He resembles a bumblebee like you because He gives up the 
association of a beautiful flower and goes to a flower that is inferior. 
That is the way Krsna has treated us. I do not know why the goddess of 
fortune continues to serve His lotus feet instead of leaving them aside. 
Apparently she believes in Krsna's false words. We gopis, however, are 
not unintelligent like Laksmi."
 
After hearing the bumblebee's sweet songs and recognizing that the bee 
was singing about Krsna for Her satisfaction, the gopi replied:
 
kim iha bahu sad-anghre gayasi tvam yadunam
adhipatim agrhanam agrato nah puranam
vijaya-sakha-sakhinam giyatam tat-prasangah
 ksapita-kuca-rujas te kalpayantistam istah
 
"Dear bumblebee, Lord Krsna has no residence here, but we know Him as 
Yadupati [the King of the Yadu dynasty]. We know Him very well, and 
therefore we are not interested in hearing any more songs about Him. It 
would be better for you to go sing to those who are now very dear to 
Krsna. Those women of Mathura have now achieved the opportunity of being 
embraced by Him. They are His beloveds now, and therefore He has 
relieved the burning in their breasts. If you go there and sing your 
songs to those fortunate women, they will be very pleased, and they will 
honor you."
 
divi bhuvi ca rasayam kah striyas tad-durapah
 kapata-rucira-hasa-bhru-vijrmbhasya yah syuh
carana-raja upaste yasya bhutir vayam ka
 api ca krpana-pakse hy uttamah-sloka-sabdah
 
"O collector of honey, Krsna must be very sorry not to see us gopis. 
Surely He is afflicted by memories of our pastimes. Therefore He has 
sent you as a messenger to satisfy us. Do not speak to us! All the women 
in the three worlds where death is inevitable -- the heavenly, middle 
and lower planets -- are very easily available to Krsna because His 
curved eyebrows are so attractive. Moreover, He is always served very 
faithfully by the goddess of fortune. In comparison with her, we are 
most insignificant. Indeed, we are nothing. Yet although He is very 
cunning, Krsna is also very charitable. You may inform Him that He is 
praised for His kindness to unfortunate persons and that He is therefore 
known as Uttamasloka, one who is praised by chosen words and verses."
 
visrja sirasi padam vedmy aham catu-karair
 anunaya-vidusas te ‘bhyetya dautyair mukundat
sva-krta iha visrstapatya-paty-anya-loka
 vyasrjad akrta-cetah kim nu sandheyam asmin
 
"You are buzzing at My feet just to be forgiven for your past offenses. 
Kindly go away from My feet! I know that Mukunda has taught you to speak 
very sweet, flattering words like this and to act as His messenger. 
These are certainly clever tricks, My dear bumblebee, but I can 
understand them. This is Krsna's offense. Do not tell Krsna what I have 
said, although I know that you are very envious. We gopis have given up 
our husbands, our sons and all the religious principles that promise 
better births, and now we have no business other than serving 
Krsna. Yet Krsna, by controlling His mind, has easily forgotten us. 
Therefore, don't speak of Him any more. Let us forget our relationship."
 
mrgayur iva kapindram vivyadhe lubdha-dharma
striyam akrta-virupam stri-jitah kama-yanam
balim api balim attvavestayad dhvanksa-vad yas
 tad alam asita-sakhyair dustyajas tat-katharthah
 
"When we remember the past births of Krsna, My dear bumblebee, we are 
very much afraid of Him. In His incarnation as Lord Ramacandra, He acted 
just like a hunter and unjustly killed His friend Vali. Lusty Surpanakha 
came to satisfy Ramacandra's desires, but He was so attached to Sitadevi 
that He cut off Surpanakha's nose. In His incarnation as Vamanadeva, He 
plundered Bali Maharaja and took all his possessions, cheating him on 
the pretext of accepting worship from him. Vamanadeva caught Bali 
Maharaja exactly as one catches a crow. My dear bumblebee, it is not 
very good to make friends with such a person. I know that once one 
begins to talk about Krsna, it is very difficult to stop, and I admit 
that I have insufficient strength to give up talking about Him."
 
yad-anucarita-lila-karna-piyusa-viprut-
 sakrd-adana-vidhuta-dvandva-dharma vinastah
sapadi grha-kutumbam dinam utsrjya dina
 bahava iha vihanga bhiksu-caryam caranti
 
"Topics about Krsna are so powerful that they destroy the four religious 
principles -- religion, economic development, sense gratification and 
liberation. Anyone who drinks even a small drop of krsna-katha through 
aural reception is freed from all material attachment and envy. Like a 
bird with no means of subsistence, such a person becomes a mendicant and 
lives by begging. Ordinary household affairs become miserable for him, 
and without attachment he suddenly gives up everything. Although such 
renunciation is quite suitable, because I am a woman I am unable to 
adopt it."
 
vayam rtam iva jihma-vyahrtam sraddadhanah
 kulika-rutam ivajnah krsna-vadhvo hiranyah
dadrsur asakrd etat tan-nakha-sparsa-tivra-
 smara-ruja upamantrin bhanyatam anya-varta
 
"O My dear messenger, I am just like a foolish bird that hears the sweet 
songs of a hunter, believes in them due to simplicity, and is then 
pierced in the heart and made to suffer all kinds of miseries. Because 
we believed in Krsna's words, we have suffered great pain. Indeed, the 
touch of Krsna's nails has injured our faces. He has caused us so much 
pain! Therefore, you should give up topics concerning Him and talk about 
something else."
 
After hearing all these statements from Srimati Radhika, the bumblebee 
left and then returned. After some thought, the gopi said:
 
priya-sakha punar agah preyasa presitah kim
 varaya kim anurundhe mananiyo ‘si me ‘nga
nayasi katham ihasman dustyaja-dvandva-parsvam
 satatam urasi saumya srir vadhuh sakam aste
 
"You are Krsna's very dear friend, and by His order you have come here 
again. Therefore you are worshipable for Me. O best of messengers, tell 
Me now, what is your request? What do you want? Krsna cannot give up 
conjugal love, and therefore I understand that you have come here to 
take us to Him. But how will you do that? We know that many goddesses of 
fortune now reside at Krsna's chest, and they constantly serve Krsna 
better than we can."
 
Praising the bumblebee for its sobriety, She began to speak in great 
jubilation.
 
api bata madhu-puryam arya-putro ‘dhunaste
 smarati sa pitr-gehan saumya bandhums ca gopan
kvacid api sa katha nah kinkarinam grnite
 bhujam aguru-sugandham murdhny adhasyat kada nu
 
"Krsna is now living like a gentleman at the gurukula in Mathura, 
forgetting all the gopis of Vrndavana. But does He not remember the 
sweet house of His father, Nanda Maharaja? We are all naturally His 
maidservants. Does He not remember us? Does He ever speak about us, or 
has He forgotten us completely? Will He ever forgive us and once again 
touch us with those hands fragrant with the scent of aguru?"
 
Antya 19.108
 
TEXT 108
 
TEXT
 
mahisira gita yena ‘dasame'ra sese
pandite na bujhe tara artha-visese
SYNONYMS
 
mahisira -- of the queens; gita -- the songs; yena -- just as; dasamera -
- of the Tenth Canto; sese -- at the end; pandite -- very learned 
scholars; na -- not; bujhe -- understand; tara -- its; artha-visese -- 
particular meaning.
 
TRANSLATION
 
The songs of the queens at Dvaraka, which are mentioned at the end of 
the Tenth Canto of Srimad-Bhagavatam, have a very special meaning. They 
are not understood even by the most learned scholars.
 
PURPORT
 
These songs of Srimad-Bhagavatam are verses 15–24 of the Ninetieth 
Chapter of the Tenth Canto.
 
kurari vilapasi tvam vita-nidra na sese
 svapiti jagati ratryam isvaro gupta-bodhah
vayam iva sakhi kaccid gadha-nirbhinna-ceta
 nalina-nayana-hasodara-lileksitena
 
All the queens incessantly thought of Krsna. After their pastimes in the 
water, the queens said, "Our dear friend the osprey, Krsna is now asleep,
 but we stay awake at night because of Him. You laugh at us when you see 
us awake at night, but why are you not sleeping? You seem absorbed in 
thoughts of Krsna. Have you also been pierced by Krsna's smile? His 
smile is very sweet. One who is pierced by such an arrow is very 
fortunate."
 
netre nimilayasi naktam adrsta-bandhus
 tvam roravisi karunam bata cakravaki
dasyam gata vayam ivacyuta-pada-justam
 kim va srajam sprhayase kavarena vodhum
 
"O cakravaki, you keep your eyes wide open at night because you cannot 
see your friend. Indeed, you are suffering very much. Is it because of 
compassion that you are crying, or are you trying to capture Krsna by 
remembering Him? Having been touched by the lotus feet of Krsna, all the 
queens are very happy. Are you crying to wear Krsna's garland on your 
head? Please answer these questions clearly, O cakravaki, so that we can 
understand."
 
bho bhoh sada nistanase udanvann
 alabdha-nidro ‘dhigata-prajagarah
kim va mukundapahrtatma-lanchanah
 praptam dasam tvam ca gato duratyayam
 
"O ocean, you have no opportunity to sleep quietly at night. Instead, 
you are always awake and crying. You have received this benediction, and 
your heart is broken just like ours. Mukunda's business with us is 
simply to smear our marks of kunkuma. O ocean, you suffer as much as we."
 
tvam yaksmana balavatasi grhita indo
 ksinas tamo na nija-didhitibhih ksinosi
kaccin mukunda-gaditani yatha vayam tvam
 vismrtya bhoh sthagita-gir upalaksyase nah
 
"O moon, you appear to be suffering from a severe fever, perhaps 
tuberculosis. Indeed, your effulgence does not have the strength to 
destroy the darkness. Have you become mad after hearing the songs of 
Krsna? Is that why you are silent? Seeing your suffering, we feel that 
you are one of us."
 
kim nv acaritam asmabhir
 malayanila te ‘priyam
govindapanga-nirbhinne
 hrdirayasi nah smaran
 
"O Malayan breeze, kindly tell us what wrong we have done to you. Why do 
you fan the flames of desire in our hearts? We have been pierced by the 
arrow of Govinda's glance, for He is perfect in the art of awakening the 
influence of Cupid."
 
megha srimams tvam asi dayito yadavendrasya nunam
 srivatsankam vayam iva bhavan dhyayati prema-baddhah
aty-utkanthah savala-hrdayo ‘smad-vidho baspa-dharah
 smrtva smrtva visrjasi muhur duhkha-das tat-prasangah
 
"Dear cloud, O friend of Krsna's, are you thinking of the Srivatsa 
symbol on Krsna's chest like us queens engaged in loving affairs with 
Him? You are absorbed in meditation, remembering the association of 
Krsna, and thus you shed tears of misery."
 
priya-rava-padani bhasase
 mrta-sanjivikayanaya gira
karavani kim adya te priyam
 vada me valgita-kantha kokila
 
"Dear cuckoo, you possess a very sweet voice, and you are very expert in 
imitating others. You could excite even a dead body with your voice. 
Therefore, tell the queens that good behavior is their proper duty."
 
na calasi na vadasy udara-buddhe
ksiti-dhara cintayase mahantam artham
api bata vasudeva-nandananghrim
 vayam iva kamayase stanair vidhartum
 
"O magnanimous mountain, you are very grave and sober, absorbed in 
thoughts of doing something very great. Like us, you have vowed to keep 
within your heart the lotus feet of Krsna, the son of Vasudeva."
 
susyad-dhradah karasita bata sindhu-patnyah
 sampraty apasta-kamala-sriya ista-bhartuh
yadvad vayam madhu-pateh pranayavalokam
 aprapya musta-hrdayah puru-karsitah sma
 
"O rivers, wives of the ocean, we see that the ocean does not give you 
happiness. Thus you have almost dried up, and you no longer bear 
beautiful lotuses. The lotuses have become skinny, and even in the 
sunshine they are devoid of all pleasure. Similarly, the hearts of us 
poor queens are all dried up, and our bodies are skinny because we are 
now devoid of loving affairs with Madhupati. Are you, like us, dry and 
without beauty because you are devoid of Krsna's loving glance?"
 
hamsa svagatam asyatam piba payo bruhy anga saureh katham
 dutam tvam nu vidama kaccid ajitah svasty asta uktam pura
kim va nas cala-sauhrdah smarati tam kasmad bhajamo vayam
 ksaudralapaya kama-dam sriyam rte saivaika-nistha striyam
 
"O swan, you have come here so happily! Let us welcome you. We 
understand that you are always Krsna's messenger. Now while you drink 
this milk, tell us what His message is. Has Krsna said something about 
us to you? May we inquire from you whether Krsna is happy? We want to 
know. Does He remember us? We know that the goddess of fortune is 
serving Him alone. We are simply maidservants. How can we worship Him, 
who speaks sweet words but never fulfills our desires?"
 
Antya 19.109
 
TEXT 109
 
TEXT
 
mahaprabhu-nityananda, donhara dasera dasa
yare krpa karena, tara haya ithe visvasa
SYNONYMS
 
mahaprabhu -- Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu; nityananda -- Lord Nityananda; 
donhara dasera dasa -- I am a servant of the servant of the servants of 
these two personalities; yare krpa karena -- if anyone is favored by 
Them; tara haya -- he certainly maintains; ithe visvasa -- faith in all 
these affairs.
 
TRANSLATION
 
If one becomes a servant of the servants of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu and 
Lord Nityananda Prabhu and is favored by Them, he can believe in all 
these discourses.
 
Antya 19.110
 
TEXT 110
 
TEXT
 
sraddha kari, suna iha, sunite maha-sukha
khandibe adhyatmikadi kutarkadi-duhkha
SYNONYMS
 
sraddha kari -- with great faith; suna -- hear; iha -- all these topics; 
sunite -- even to hear; maha-sukha -- great pleasure; khandibe -- it 
will destroy; adhyatmika-adi -- all distresses due to the body, mind and 
so on; kutarka-adi-duhkha -- and the miserable conditions arising from 
the use of false arguments.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Just try to hear these topics with faith, for there is great pleasure 
even in hearing them. That hearing will destroy all miseries pertaining 
to the body, mind and other living entities, and the unhappiness of 
false arguments as well.
 
Antya 19.111
 
TEXT 111
 
TEXT
 
Caitanya-caritamrta -- nitya-nutana
sunite sunite judaya hrdaya-sravana
SYNONYMS
 
Caitanya-caritamrta -- the book named Caitanya-caritamrta; nitya-
nutana -- always fresh; sunite sunite -- by hearing and hearing; judaya -
- becomes pacified; hrdaya-sravana -- the ear and heart.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Sri Caitanya-caritamrta is ever-increasingly fresh. For one 
who hears it again and again, the heart and ear become pacified.
 
Antya 19.112
 
TEXT 112
 
TEXT
 
sri-rupa-raghunatha-pade yara asa
caitanya-caritamrta kahe krsnadasa
SYNONYMS
 
sri-rupa -- Srila Rupa Gosvami; raghunatha -- Srila Raghunatha dasa 
Gosvami; pade -- at the lotus feet; yara -- whose; asa -- expectation; 
Caitanya-caritamrta -- the book named Caitanya-caritamrta; kahe -- 
describes; krsnadasa -- Srila Krsnadasa Kaviraja Gosvami.
 
TRANSLATION
 
Praying at the lotus feet of Sri Rupa and Sri Raghunatha, always 
desiring their mercy, I, Krsnadasa, narrate Sri Caitanya-caritamrta, 
following in their footsteps.
 
Thus end the Bhaktivedanta purports to Sri Caitanya-caritamrta, 
Antya-lila, Nineteenth Chapter, describing the Lord's devotion to His 
mother, His mad speeches in separation from Krsna, His rubbing His face 
against the walls of the Gambhira, and His dancing in the Jagannatha-
vallabha garden.
 